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[swinger_kitten]

i want to run away again.

just go. escape.

i've never really been that great at anything. im alright at alot, but great? im passionate, sure. i love food. i love music and singing and dancing and acting. i keep thinking that if im passionate enough, i'll become amazing at it. and im not bad at anything. im good enough at everything to pass. to

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[capnkjb]

It's a ridiculous example, I know, but at his Chinese opera academy, Jackie Chan was not awesome at any one thing. He was decent at acting, he was decent at singing, he was decent at martial arts and tumbling. I'm not sure that translates here, but he kept trying at things and eventually he ended up in a very nice spot indeed.

I mean, I can't really say much, because I myself am terrified of failure (why else am I a 4th year grad student who hates her job but won't work on her thesis project and won't apply for a different job), but oh man if there are truly things you are good at doing, maybe not the best but still good enough to keep at them, by all means keep doing them.

[noirrosaleen]

*hugs* Well...I can't really offer any advice except to remember that this too shall, unhelpful as that is.

Will you be able to make it up on the 2nd for my birthday?

[swinger_kitten]

i have work on the second. sorry my dear!!

[noirrosaleen]

Aww...when to when?

[subvertere]

you may be running away from here- but what are you running to?

i get that way. it was so bad at one point that i joined the army- then left that and ran to russia, then left that and ran to art school- then left that and realized i was running away from myself the whole time.

it never leaves you- dont worry, the grass is always greener on the other side. The urge to run is just the explosion of emotion from parts of our lives that are less than satisfying.

[apoundofflesh]

do you feel like talking about this over the phone or via an in person meeting?