there is so much to find and learn about that it gets unbearable sometimes and i feel a certain feeling of despair, but also manic yet unfocused energy that keeps me from sleeping.

sometimes, i am a determinist. but not in the sense that i think god has chosen my destiny--no, i see things being the way they are because of cause. do i actually have any control? or are all of the positions of atoms and molecules, which are now at the positions which they were caused to be, causing me to think that my experiences were not just ( Read more... )

in the past, man-made things sprung from nature. someday there will be no distinction.

i used to wonder if i knew what the future would be. now when i wonder that i think about who i am and it always turns out to be no surprise. so yes, it turned out one day i'd do whatever i wanted to do and so yes someday i'll write these words down on paper and i'll put these songs through an instrument

maybe i'm the point in pointland. this may be true only because you can't be the point because i am (existing).

some times i find myself wanting to be in a bed in the summer in a room with the moon and the stars painted on the walls. the heat would not be too hot and the cold would not be too cool. the sliding door to the small, wooden porch would be left open and the curtains would ripple and swell in the shape of a slight ocean breeze. the diffused light ( Read more... )

last night i did not sleep instead i took philadelphia by bike even into the small hours

god damn, the fiery furnaces have an amazing live act.

fasfa is due the 30th or something. i am techically supposed to be going to drexel in the fall but my account is on hold and its too late to register for housing and i havent gotten a bill and i havent talked to anyone about it. i have the strangest feeling that i won't be going to college again.

imagine a robot. now multiply it by cognition and problem-solving. its conciousness, all stored on a hard drive, available to be copied in a matter of seconds ( Read more... )