Utterly and completely depressed. please shoot me.

[swlibrabw]

Not one person to be my shoulder to lean on as the only thing I can lean on is the computer to you Heather. I have spent the entire week alone. I havent even said one word to my roommate. I have seriously been something of a bad person. And that is not me. But it is becoming me which makes me feel like "shaeyton". Which is persian for satan. Ok, so

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[scorpiokitty84]

Brianna, I know exactly how you feel. Last night, I had a dream about him. What the FUCK. How can you have a dream about someone that you despise? That's totally not fair. But I guess you can't control what you dream...I know how hard it is to let go, believe me. It's like you want to, but you can't, because every moment, every word is seared in your memory. The good, and, unfortunately, the bad...There's so MANY things, so many aspects and conversations, etc...that people have no idea about (between he and i) and if they did, they would be like "jesus you got burned." to me. it's probably one of the worst things that's ever happened to me in my life, and it's going to take a long time before i trust anyone again. and i hate being this way, it makes me feel weak, like i shouldn't care at ALL, but how could i NOT? i hide it well, (sometimes) but i too love am "utterly and completely depressed"... ~h