Tired of this isht.
Ugh, I'm so fucking tired of this. Ya know...sometimes I don't mind being the leader in the group...but other times...damnit, I wish someone else would think of something for us to do. YES, I KNOW we live in a town not bursting at the seam w/things to do, but people, we've lived here for 19 years, we've learned to make do w/what we have. I'm almost always the one who says, hey, who's free tonite? who wants to go out to eat, or to watch some movies, or hit up Starbucks? It's just frustrating... I feel like... we're all thinking, yea.. let's do something tonite, but nobody else will initiate any interraction. I also understand that we're the token poor college students but there ARE things we can do that are either cheap or free.
Starting tonite, I've decided I'm not going to initiate our activities anymore. Let someone else think of something for once. It's not going to kill you. I'm still alive aren't I? Plus, if nobody else will do it, I have other friends from school that I'll hang out. Hell, I'm seeing Kenny next week. I've seen Brittni tons of times already and last nite I hung out w/Leanne. At least they try to hang out w/me. Damnit...really...Brittni even just showed up @ my house today and said, 'hey, let's go to Panera for lunch.' I loved how spontaneous she was. It made me so effing happy!
So.. from now on, until someone else can think of things for the :::facepalmers::: to do... I'm going to keep to myself. It's bad enough I still don't feel like I can be fully open w/anyone but now the feeling that nobody wants to hang out... it's just worse. Call me a b*tch for saying this, but you didn't have to read it. It's my feelings...and if it bothers you..please say something. Otherwise, I'm just going to hang out w/my USP friends in Philly and other people who can try and hang out w/me. Plus, now I have a job...so I'll be working a lot.
W/E. I doubt anyone will read this. If you did, don't fucking start a riot cuz you don't like what I said...say something to me.
kthnxbye!