not that i'm surprised really. but i was hopeful. anyway, guess i oughtta just forget about it ( Read more... )

i have this strange desire to have a puppy. i call it strange because i am a cat person through and through. anyway, i figured that might be an interesting way to start an entry ( Read more... )

i'm feeling better today. i felt really crappy last night when i started that post. but then i called angel all upset and what not, and he made me take a bath to calm me down. a really hot bath. it was wondeful. he's wonderful. and then i fell asleep to "phantom" and that always makes me feel better. it keeps me from thinking, i just listen to the ( Read more... )

i'm destined to be a crazy old cat lady, it's in my genes as much as my eye and hair color is. little bit cuddled me last night, and harriett cuddled with me in the afternoon. i love kitty cuddles. they're just so cute and i love em ( Read more... )

i just got off the phone with my uncle steve (dad's brother). he's an interesting character. he's in alaska and i haven't seen him in about 10 years. he's drunk (of course), and his liver is failing... but it was interesting talking to him. sometimes he creeps me out, and i just hand the phone back to my dad because i don't want to talk to him ( Read more... )

i realized i shouldn't have wrote that when i was upset. (the entry from a while ago). i've been busy this last week or so, so i want to clarify now. it's not that i hate zta, or the gamma betas. i really do love the organization and my sisters. and i do mean to call them my sisters. zta is a wondeful organization and the gamma betas are all ( Read more... )

i've lost my boyfriend to counter-strike. altho it is a fun game, and i am learning (his cs buddies are mean to me sometimes tho, they like to kill me just for fun). anyway. i'm sleepy. things are going ok. i need a job. like desperately. i don't want to work at the birth center anymore. i can't be around my mom that much anymore. i want to feel ( Read more... )

seriously man.

it's kind of funny how things end up. who would have thought i'd be here at this point in my life? i'm 20, living at home, taking a semester off school. not sure where or when i'm going to go back to school. i'm totally uncertain of my future (with the exception of angel being a part of it). for my entire life, i had things thought out, i'd do this ( Read more... )

juani's interview of me ( Read more... )