Another Mosh-pit of thoughts

[sxe_mouse]

Well it sure has been a great while sience I have posted in Livejournal....
So whats new you might ask well there sure is a GREAT deal of stuff going on in my life....

-First off..I feel like I have COMPLETELY lost my "best" friend....she just dosent have time for me or anything...her birthday is this weekend and I have tried I dont know how many

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[llauren_mia]

actually i know exactly how you feel with the guy you're living with and people say 'boyfriend' but he's not.

I'm in that situation too. I lived with my best friend Michael off and on for a long time, since i got back from Oregon pretty much. And i love him like a brother and know nothing is going to come between us....but now that i made a decision to go out with him its kinda gotten fucked up. Everyone says 'oh it's about time' and i'm left here thinking, 'shit, it doesnt feel right...he really is just a brother to me'.
So if i were you i wouldnt ruin things as they are, i doubt you are lying to yourself...because you seem to be very honest with yourself about your feelings and thoughts. If things are content as they are...then i wouldn't change them.
...but it's possible i don't completely understand your situation. lol

[sxe_mouse]

this is just all new for me..I have never lived with a guy before...we where dating and only moved in together after we borke up...and lately he has been acting all sweet and everything and gets very protective of me....I just dont know whats going on in his head he is not a very open person...I dont think of him like a brother...but more of a best friend I guess...its just hard for me to know what he wants when he wont tell me...but I think I'm past the part of still wanting to be with him he has told me he never wants to be with me again and I respect that but to say that then act like my boyfriend is just too much of a mind fuck for me...we fight alot too...just like a married couple or something...I'm starting to feel like this cycle is never going to end...unless I do something about it and just move out....Gah why isn't there some sort of guid book for life that tells you about these things that are hard to deal with...no ever told me growing up would be this hard!

[beverlu_]

fjkdslafjsdl.
I never knew you had a livejournal. or maybe I DID I just forgot. and never thought to ask because nobody seemz to use it these days besides llauren and I?

anywayssz, lets hang out soon lady.