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[sxejulz]

I was PISSED lastnight. I went to a party and took three drinks from Courtney's smirnof, and then had a shot of vodka. Yes me. Alcohol. I hate myself too. Just so you know that will be the first and last time anything like that will ever happen again. I tried to puke but I don't know how to make myself puke so it didn't go to well and I just ended

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[fullscaleattack]

well be proud of yourself, most of the non drinkers i know, once a drop touched their lips they became infatuated with alcohol.

high five to you for having willpower, i wish i could ride in that same boat

[sxejulz]

Nah I don't have any will power. I don't have any urges I just did it because it's so against everything I believe in. And thats just the mood I was in.

You should say hi to me next time you see me. I'm working there full time now!

[fullscaleattack]

will do
what project are you

[sxejulz]

abercrombie, you?

[anonymous]

not even ebough to get drunk but enough to feel a slight buzz i bet. You act liike you had a poison in you remember your the one who put it there and your the one who made it go away. The reason you werent drunk (despite minimal intake) is because you were afraid. You have no experience in state of feeling drunk and anticipated it scaring you so much that you actually sobered up. Thats the mind and thats the power of it but sometimes you can use your mind as a control not a safety net that is if you trust yourself. Self-control is an illusion and a trick. The word itself was made by man and we are creatures of habit by nature. Take some time to think that no matter what at the end of the day youll still be a person and you can decide how certain things effect you. Read "Food of the Godds" by Terrence McKenna front and back and actually look at the views of his words and you might have a better understanding of accepting some people instead of placing them in two groups of users and non-users. Oh yeah and addiction is an

[sxe4me]

aww julie i wuv you :( that blows that you were
that upset. i wish i would of been there to talk
you out of it. i know how you feel though, i have
actual nightmares about being at parties and
drinking by "accident" or whatever, and then
i wake up almost crying because of how real
the dreams are and it upsets me because of
all that time i spent without being substance-
dependent...like i did a boo boo a few weeks
ago when my mom had her baby, we were in the
cafeteria and my cousin got lasanga so i got
it too cause it sounded good. i totally
cleaned my plate without even being smart
enough to stop and think.."wow.. that had
hamburger in it..that's meat.." it didn't
even hit me until the drive home from the hospital
so..bottom line: nobody's perfect but just as
long as you stand for something like you stand for
activism and vegetarianism and being straight edge,
you're gonna get through the little mistakes you
make :)
<3

[sxejulz]

aww I love you!! Your a wonderful friend kristin. I had a call from a kristin today and thought of you. :)