sometimes things arent always as they seem.

[sydule]

i have faced a series of rejections throughout my life. so much so, that, i almost expect it alot of the time. and i deal with it, and i move on. but when i do it to someone else, its like the world is crumbling down. what the hell? boys, help me out on this one. why, when i tell a boy i like him as a friend, and i think hes cool but not to date,

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[tommyoftheks]

What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?

[sydule]

huhhhh?

[tommyoftheks]

sorry, I posted that only having seen the info, and it reminded me of that lyric from a NIN song.... But I just read your post and I don't know if this helps, but my experience is that (generally speaking) guys don't really ever start to like a girl like that. If a guy enjoys those things with a girl (talking, IMs, all that stuff that girls do, but maintain the 'just friends' relationship), then he likes her, and would probably date her. I mean, I'm not saying that a guy can't have friends that are girls, its just that if a guy has a friend that is a girl, and it ever gets to the point that he would say something like "i miss [her] annoying ims and [her] constant text messages," then he knows that he's got feelings for that girl. I don't know maybe that's just me. But generally, if I miss certain things about a girl, that is why. Now, I know this is gonna come off as horrible, and I don't really want to explain myself right now because it's awefully late, but maybe that is just something that is specific to me, because I never really

[sydule]

wait, i was saying that i missed the ims. but i dont really anymore. because it happened like everyday for a week, and now that's changed, so its different. but i still feel bad.

[ekspatreat]

sydney, you are sweet, and i think it's great that you're totally aware of your emotional availabitly. you shouldn't let anyone make you feel guilty about doing what's right for you.

ps - are you HOME?

[sydule]

thanks julia. im not home. ill be home next thursday.