the only people i miss are chelsie, kayci zukowski, caity, christina, annie, brittany marshall and sean.
 the rest of you are stupid

today my mom turned 49 and she says she feels like such a young'n 

when you decided to knock on my door did you remember what happened before?
it just didn't sparkle it just didn't grow, some things look better inside of the store
did you agree? we should let it be. and did you agree? it's a must let's call the whole thing off
we must have had enough of us. let's call the whole thing off, we must have had enough ( Read more... )

new allison rule: if you get your heart broken two times in one year, they cancel each other out!!

you can get your heart done broke even if you're not in love. i sort of lied when i said i was feeling better than ever, because it does hurt, and it will hurt. but the thing is none of the people who have hurt me have deserved me. at least i know that ( Read more... )

someone told me that guys develop slower than girls do, and that an 18-19 year old guy actually has the mentality of about a 15 year old boy. i believe that wholeheartedly.
oh well. at least i'm not in love this time.

i'm pretty happy with life right now, the last couple weeks have been much much better. i am dying to move out, so anyone who wants a roomie within the next few months lemme know i need to get out of this house but i cant afford it on my own.

everything is okay again, i guess i'll just have to keep working on maintaining goodness. 
been painting a lot lately, so thats very good.
i like my life again, somewhat. i guess that's a day to day thing as well.

 why did i screw up my lucky streak
wait.. when was my lucky streak? maybe i never had one, maybe it's still about to come. if so, i guess amongst all this stressful bullshit i can look forward to something good happening soon, but i can't wait
i also refuse REFUSE to set myself up for pain again.

i let myself like someone for the first time in forrrrevvverr. i let my guard down, i tell my secrets, i paint a picture, i write songs in my head. listen to me i sound like such a douche. i'm so terrified that after this ridiculous piece of shit day, that i won't let myself trust another person like i trusted him in a very long time.
i don't know ( Read more... )

 well
i was wrong again. big surprise. i dunno why i still try

meh. 
moses and i slept in this morning, he seriously fell asleep with his legs on either side of my face and his chin resting on my chin. 
he is sooo cute. i love him.