Hopefully have a better idea tomorrow where I'll landing. Soo much to do in the short time I have before heading out and I am being spun in so many directions. Ugh, no time to waste but in this uncertainty very little can be done productively. I feel like time is running out and I have to run to beat the clock, even though I don't know where to

Lots of planning to do. Lots of work left at my part-time job; things I've been designing that if I don't finish, there could be a large ramp-up period for someone new to attempt. Still need to figure out where I will live in NM, what I am going to do and where I will stay abroad, and what my gameplan is for moving to a state where I know 0 ( Read more... )

time to put forth some effort. Looking to change my habits and outlook. Been feeling like a brick lately, weighing down more than just myself. Trying, but that isn't enough and I'm not convinced it is my best. Perfectionism, doubt, anger, confusion with no distinct target. I feel like I'm losing what little faith I have left. What would life ( Read more... )

Get Motivated… I need to get motivated for this thesis. Time will be up soon. I have 18 days left to finalize the version I want to defend. If I don’t finish, I’ll miss out on traveling abroad this summer (either partially or completely) and have to pay for summer tuition ( Read more... )

I'm not sure how I feel and figure a bit of free writing might help. I've got about 23 days to finish the written version of my thesis that I will be defending. I'm not sure why but I am having a terrible time getting motivated to work on it. I think what bothers me about it is that I am working on it solo, I've never been a fan of large, solo ( Read more... )

I'll be surprised if I ever actually reread this one but thought it might be good to include at least one post on my thesis work ( Read more... )

Late night for no reason. Played some games and hung out with some friends but I'm being too irresponsible considering how much thesis work I have left. Had my first game of indoor soccer today, our team has plenty room for improvement haha. I think the final score was 14 to 0, ah well ( Read more... )

Too much on my mind to sleep right now. I've felt kind of sick and stressed out these past few days. At first I thought I was just coming down from the high of a Vegas weekend but I think it is a combination of things. As of tomorrow I will be mailing in my acceptance of a job offer at Sandia which means I will be moving to New Mexico this ( Read more... )

Recovering and removed,
All the old wound scarring.
Like a kite transcending the sky
Eventually the object is lost.
Illicit emotion skids into the drink.
Gathering confidence for another run,
Hands are free.

I decided to go to bed early tonight so I could wake up early to do the 'research' work that I should be doing right now...  I've never had such a large, overwhelming and undefined project...  finishing this thesis will be a lot of work but I'll be better for it in the end ( Read more... )