And this marks my official "Giving Up"

[sylvantide]

I don't know what to do anymore. I am at my wits end. If it weren't for Adam *sighs*

I know I haven't been updating in this thing at all lately, and for good reason. I don't WANT to see my failures in print. Why the hell would I?

I'm just sick of it all.
Fuck it all.

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[sa_am]

dear sylvan,

at least writing can be a way to let it out! *hugz*

hang in there...

best,
sa_am

[sylvantide]

heya sa_am.....

I know I should have some outlet, but just the thought of writing down everything leaves me with a little bit of a chill. As if seeing it in print makes it more real, more touchable. And I don't want it to be. I greatly dislike these feelings that I am having. I've never really felt them before. I've always been in control of my life. I've always had a direction (though granted it was as often as not the correct one, imo anyways).