my birthday is one week from today
and i'm hoping to be normal by then
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things...are...different.
and it's weird.
i just want everything to be normal again.
and i thought it was.
but it's not.
or maybe it is.
it all depends on the moment.
i can't explain.

and i don't much want to.
that's all.

if i could describe my ideal life in one word, it would be loving. or romantic. one of those. i don't care at all anymore about the drugs, or the parties, or the fucking music or any other crap. that's all i want.

i was so happy, what happened.
it's okay, i'm not letting myself be kept unhappy.

this just in: i am alright. good even. and i realize that i need to make alot of changes in my life, and i will. that is all. have a great life. bye

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
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so i have some fucking heart problem. i can't write too much cause i don't want to think about it. i'm still convinced this all has to do with a drug overdose. but i can't say that. i'm very scared, but i'm confident that this isn't permamant after reading up on it on the internet. that's all i guess. i need a new lifestyle.

10 years ago: i was 10. hahaha i'm 20, thats so gay ( Read more... )

I HAVE A NEW SCREEN NAME. IT'S: ziiiggy stardust. SO...............IM ME AND STUFF.

i don't want to be alive anymore.
and for the 8 billionth time, i mean that.

i've decided that i'm going to go on I WANT A FAMOUS FACE.
and this is my only explanation as to why....

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