Oh btw, most likely I wont be online at all for the next week or so. Well proh jus to check my email ( Read more... )

Everyone goes through shit in their life. Ups and downs. I know and understand thish fully well. Im assuming that most of the shit that I write in here or wherever most ppl go through as well. To different extents (gee I wonder why?... [if you dont know what I mean, then you really dont know me]). No one ever talks about things that they deal with ( Read more... )

Late at night I think to myself, alot. [I] think about shit that probably never should cross my mind at any time. Like why should I even try? Why do I continue the friendships that Ive established? Why havent I killed myself yet, when my world is filled with chaos, worry, delusion, paranoia, stress, angst, depression, as well as other things ( ( Read more... )

Finally catching up on my sleep. For some odd reason Im able to sleep, quite well at that. Still no dreams that I can recall but its good sleep nonetheless. Taking advantage of thish time? Yup ( Read more... )

Im going on a veggie diet starting today. So if anyone has really good recipesn lemme know so we can chat an so forth ( Read more... )

As of late Ive been fucked over by fate so it seems. [And] all of these things that Im going to list have really made an uncomfortable, depressed, quiet (more than usual), isiolative, even more anti~social PHiL. They are; Death of my Grandmother, loss (in a way, due to moving away) of Fyl, Cher and Jen, extremely high debt, Mars. Ive also been ( Read more... )

Quite a few (well several to say the least) things were brought to my attention once again if not for the first time. Things regarding life and all of its complex elements surrounding such. Things that I seriously need to think about and so forth, see if they really do apply and if so apply them to mine as best as I can if not learn from whatever ( ( Read more... )

So today was somewhat eventful, kind of in a way. Well I found out that it will be nearly impossible to fix my car even with my sperm donors' help, so I have to have my car towed to a shop and have it fixed. Yea thats up to 4 hundred dollars outta my ass ( Read more... )

So lately Ive been working a shitload. Kinda nice, ya know gettin monies an all however such a bitch. Cause basically all the money I earn I have to repay ppl back, only to end up with enough for cigarettes and gas... well pants and shoes for work but yea. Still looking for another job and come tuesday Im apply for a security guard position at a ( Read more... )

Well I guess Ill keep thish shit up (meaning my LJ account).