crash

[syravon]

i feel like im gonna crash. 
i have no energy. drinking red bull isnt going to cut it. 
even after taking stuff to help me sleep, i still dont sleep. 
so its a struggle to want to do anything. 
sophia only gets up twice during the nights now. 
it doesnt matter. b/c im prolly up anyway when she wants to eat.
i started counseling yesterday. 
guy asked me

Comments

[crystalstarr]

post partum depression, and just a lot of stress maybe? it sounds like a lot on your plate!!

Its good that you are in therapy, i am too and that is for the best.

I can relate a lot, and i suppose the only thing i can suggest and the thing i try to do is get out be around people. Pick up hobbies. I picked up my old love of drawing and found i liked it so much i just made it a full time thing.Its difficult to find "me" time when you have kids i know, i have two of them, but you have to try to find some time, just a few hours here there. Connect with other moms in area to arrange switch offs on babysitting so you can be alone once in awhile. It isn't easy.

Hang in there, moms are the strongest people in the world and the ones taken for granted the most by everyone.

[syravon]

hey thanks for responding to this entry.
i've been trying to get out there and make myself able to be around other people. sometimes its hard for me b/c im not a social person.
i guess what i could do is quit feeling sorry for myself and think about how bad other people have it huh?

[jedi_newby]

well i dont have kids so i can't relate but i can pass on one very simple and powerful truth for you think about.

The best mothers usually fear they are the worst. its part of what makes them the best. it pushes them to be better and better.

[syravon]

thanks for the encouragement:)

i do fear that im not gonna be a good mom. but i mean everyone makes mistakes and i need to come to terms with that. i wont be the perfect mom. i can try but i know somewhere along the line, ill mess up. we all do. and its ok. b/c we learn from it.