Ok w/e, I’m sick off writing in this damn thing and sick off living in my lala land of dreams were I think I have a chance with anything but raccoons. I'm sick of being disappointed. I’m sick of not even being able to tell anyone how I feel. I’m sick of preppy ass girls with no.. AHH ( Read more... )

And interwoven in these
Dreams of life and love.
Lay our insecurities, our weaknesses
That shine like beacons.

And interwoven in the lies we prospect
Of ourselves and others.
Our need for gold stars and approval.
Our abandonment of the simple and clean.

I'm tuggin' at my hair ( Read more... )

Im to put out to update.

Today is laser tag..I LOVE THAT SHIT

Today at church at "kicking it free style" IT was pretty fun...*whatshisface* was there.

Some times I really thinks he might like me back. Like he kept looking over at me.... or he keeps looking at me looking at him.

And today it was so cute. He tried to teach me to play basketball. He was all like teaching and trying to explain it to me.

Ok, know what’s sad? My dads in the room so to update my journal I have to watch my back. Yeah I know ( Read more... )

Sometimes at MYF when Angela and Kelli aren’t there, I’m kidda sad like there my friends like so are Sarah and Christen but, they joke about everything, and I’m not in that kind of mood. And when I talk to Angela I feel like she actually cares. Most of the time if I’m not just saying random shit. You know. Like I wont be talking and she just wont ( Read more... )

Well tonight was fun. WE played...capture the flag. I was on you know who’s team. Well Also Scott and Steve came (sign). It’s sad how happy it makes me just touching them. Like one tagged me and was sweaty and gross but I thought in my mind. 'Its ok this sweat is hot. He’s beautiful'. Then I tagged the other on the cheat area *sigh* *gasp* *faint*

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Well went bike riding today. It was fun. Hmmm. my sun burns peeling nicely.

Ok I totally didn’t mean to get Legolas, I was really trying to get Aragorn cuz he’s
Piz-imp. But oh well. ( he does match my journal though..)


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Ok know whats really annoying. I try to have friendly conversation with oldwhatshisface and he acts like if he says anytihng back i'll be like "YOUR MY ONE TRUE LOVER FOREVER!" which im not like.