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Jan 12, 2012 14:03

About You: You are a Creator

- Your imagination, confidence, willingness to explore, and appreciation of beauty make you a CREATOR.
- You are independent, and you enjoy your self-sufficiency.
- Defying convention, you are very innovative, and you have a vivid imagination.
- The look of things is important to you, and you have a keen eye for aesthetic beauty in multiple arenas.
- You have a strong interest in what is new and exciting-and that includes forging ahead with new ideas, not simply discovering what is already out there.
- Your eagerness to seek new and varied experiences leads you into many different situations.
- You're not set on one way of doing things, and you are creative when it comes to finding novel solutions to complex problems.
- You trust yourself to be innovative and resourceful.
- Your confidence allows you to take your general awareness and channel it into creativity.
- You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.
- You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.
- Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:
- Appreciate the earthly, practical elements of things-there is beauty in form as well.
- While you are good at thinking abstractly, focusing on details a bit more may help you discover things about the world.

How you relate to others: You are Generous

- Your awareness of those around you, along with your nuanced perceptions of the world at large, makes you the GENEROUS person that you are.
- You value time to yourself and understand how rich your private world can be-you know that you don't have to go wild to have a good time.
- You are excited and energized by ideas and often enjoy things more through observation than through experience.
- This tendency gives you an appreciation for different perspectives and opinions about the world.
- Being as aware of others as you are doesn't mean you find it easy to trust them immediately-this is something that happens more slowly for you.
- Despite this, you are aware of the complexities of many situations and are reluctant to pass judgments on others.
- Although you have fewer friendships than some people, those that you have are meaningful and are important to you.
- You value spending time alone-it is while reflecting on the world around you that you often learn something new about yourself or begin to understand something that's been bothering you.

If you want to be different:
- Given how attuned you are to others' thoughts and feelings, you might find that trusting people more is a way to broaden your perspective even further.
- While you know how much can be learned from observing the world around you, remember that much of life can be lived by experiencing it, not just by understanding it.

Very High Femininity
Very Imaginative
Slightly High Openness
Slightly High Agency
Slightly High Spontaneity
Slightly High Attention to Style
Slightly High Empathy
Average Confidence
Slightly Low Trust
Slightly Low Authoritarianism
Low Masculinity
Low Extroversion
Slightly Aesthetic

I really like well-done personality profiles because they help me with something I constantly struggle with: accepting myself for who I am. Although having a 96/4 femininity/masculinity ratio breaks my heart.

It sounds a little egotistical, but I like reading thoughtful explanations of myself, at least when the results are correct enough that I know they're true, because it makes me feel like I'm interesting, like I have something to offer the world, to offer others, when most of the time I don't.

I've struggled more with this in the years since I've left Seattle because I feel that now I'm actually fighting for myself instead of just wallowing in pity. I get glimpses of clarity, where I do honestly believe there is a place, a life for me somewhere "even though" I'm a sensitive, introspective person who just wants to see the beauty in everything and talk for hours on end about my philosophies on life, in between digesting all forms of art wholesale and genuinely wanting to help others with their lives. There are times I feel like I could live my life like that and find others who want to as well. And then there is most of the time, where I feel like this should all be contained in my room away from everyone. But I suppose "low trust" has more to do with that than I sometimes realize.

If my life was just full of all of the above... and more importantly, full of people who understood the way I want to live and didn't think it was wrong or weird or slapped labels on it like "lazy" or "unsuccessful", I could be so genuinely happy. So in reality, I've really figured out what I want in life. That's a big accomplishment, to be able to say you've really found the thing(s) you feel could make you happy for the rest of your life.

I've always thought the problem is that what I want isn't "to be a doctor" or "to have kids". I can't just go to medical school or get myself impregnated to have what I want. I don't really see any clear and concise steps between what I have now and what I want, and I'm not entirely sure I don't already have everything that should be making me happy. So the question becomes, what is making me unhappy, then?

I don't really know. It's easy to blame it on my current situation, but I was never really happy before now, either. There's always something making me unhappy, but I hate the mentality that you just have to change your outlook to be happy. That's probably a part of it but you don't just get there by "thinking happy thoughts", that's bullshit.

Either way, I feel like I'm getting closer. I feel like my self-awareness is growing by leaps and bounds lately, and I think that can only lead me to a better place. I'm a lot more open about the things I like and the things I do and what I think than I ever have been, almost to a point of confidence, which is incredible for me since confident is never a word I thought would have ever described me.

We'll see how much of this I can keep with me when I enter back into society again. Because that's always the hardest part for me. My misanthropy certainly doesn't serve me very well, but I'm not really ready to get past that yet.

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