i hate this so bad........i just want to keep running away but can't.....i hate this.....i don't know how to handle losing my father.....i hate it so bad....

my day was great until i called my mom....leave it to her to give me so much crap about a small thing.....i need to start working out and studying again.....i need to stop pushing it away and focus on getting into the airforce....i was in a mental block...but now i'm ready to try one more time...its a new year...i want to start it right and not ( Read more... )

i got the journal i always wanted...mitch got it for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i'm not spending christmas with my family....why is that you ask??? oh because my mom doesn't feel good and tells me to go over to mitch's and spend christmas with his family...and they wonder why his parents don't really want to meet them....hmm...oh yea because they're coming off the wrong way....i don't get it...i have to wait til the 27th to ( Read more... )

all my thoughts and wonders always seem to drift.....i relized what i really want that would make my day if i could afford to get it...a journal at borders,its so awesome and its always what i've wanted.....i've seen writters in movie have them when they traveled around the world.....watching them have stuff like that made me want to become a ( Read more... )

is it wrong to feel so much at home over at mitch's house instead of my own??? is it wrong to want to be around his parents instead of mine??? because mine worry about what other thinks and decide to cover it up which ends up their foot in their mouth...or how their daughter was in the emergency room and wouldn't stay with her,instead mitch's mom ( Read more... )

its amazing how my life can go from good to confusing in one second....the wedding is held off,which is for the better,i have things i need to deal with....i'm scared....i don't know what lies for me now....i wish i had mitch next to me to feel comfort,but i need to work on things by myself...God is watching and helping me.....

i can't write on myspace right now,due to my brother joey telling peter (my real dad) everything thats going on and i don't want that ( Read more... )

in 31 days i get to marry my bestfriend,the one that i laugh with,the one i love to be with.....my mind is scared,my heart is beating when i say those words....but i'm excited and happy that i get to be with my bestfriend for ever......i love him with all my heart...i can't believe its that close....

i work at walmart now which is fun!!!! i'm getting married next month!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so freaken happy!!!!!!!! i didn't do so well on my asvab but i get a chance to retake it after my wedding!!!!!!!!!! haha!!!!!!!!!! I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!