dude i got kittens look.....


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hmm...yea its been awhile since i wrote in this thing....let see working at amc now,seeing some people i haven't seen in forever...including one person i would of never thought to see again.....its hard to know he can still have effect on me like before.....but to actually try to stand there and talk to him again,i was like dude no,i can't do this ( Read more... )

car accident the other day was a rush,no car its totalled....me and mitch are ok and thats all that matters to me...just in pain...going to the doctors to get it check out...later...♥

have u ever wonder how things happen,when u wish they happened a different away.or how u could just leave and never come back,but yet remember some people need u at this point in life.how badly u thought and wished everyday u could leave but then felt so guilty about it cuz u relized some other things.....i'm so lost and confused and scared at this ( Read more... )

yesterday was cool...went to a show with amanda,dave,and mitch....it was fun....came home and chilled with mitch til my mom got home.....being with him is awesome......he makes me smile all the time......it makes me feel good to kno that i can be myself and not impress him.....like the other guys i've dated i've felt like that....he makes me feel ( Read more... )

i'm so glad that nothing happen to him....he'll be out in up to 5 or 7 days...i'm so glad he's ok.....that call just made my whole day better....thank u josh for calling me to let me know matt was ok..i took my freindship for granted and now i won't,cuz i almost lost the one that ment alot to me....who was there by myside through almost everything ( Read more... )

i won't allow him to leave me.......i've lost 2 and i won't lose another bestfreind...i love and care about him so much....i'll switch places with him if i have to.so he can be alright..i can't believe this is happening all over again...its not fair.....

all i am..is just scared....afriad of wut might happen...wut it will become...how it will all go out...scared...i shake so bad to know things might not work....i'm so lost in being scared...i just wish i could stop this...but its over powering me too much...i hate being scared of this....its my weakness i don't like to show....i feel so ashamed ( Read more... )

so my hours this week are major for me......and i found out why i'm closing saturday,cuz the oringal closers for my part are going to a show,that i was thinking about going to as well...but noooooo.....i have to work that night and close....lol...anyway,i have school tomorrow...joy......have to still get a student parking pass..so my real dad is ( Read more... )

some odd reason i felt like i just had no one that today was just an endless nightmar and i was by myself.....i don't kno why but i did....