i care about you too much, and i dont feel like i would ever love anybody and be able to give anyone my heart like i have for you. i can't seee it working out any other way. just appreciate how much i love you, thats all i ask. thats all just appreciate it.

this is the most horrible undescribable pain ive ever had and its in the deepest part of my heart.

fuck dude, what am i supposed to do. there is no handbook to the human heart.

got a new job today. im working w/ j.bruso over at All Power now, ima gunna bea truckin driva, YEEHAW! well not really any big rig but a fork lift is big enough, i guess, among other things. im just pumped to have a change of venue, ill be on the road all day driving around, by myself, oh wow, that is exactly what i love. i am keeping my job at ( Read more... )

so i just confurred up an idea. i dont want to be here right now. here as in the sense of this stick in time. last year was great but not enough, kinda flat as far as a personal level of growing. and right here right now, i can't be persuaded into believing that this is how i should be living. i plan on searching schools in fla but i dont know if ( Read more... )

im ok w/ what ever happens i guess. so everything is falling into place i guess. theres a couple of jobs im looking at part time and full time. i figure my tax return will pretty much pay off my debt w/ my rents. after that just gotta work and pay my monthly bills and hopefully ill save enough to buy a new car. don't know if that will happen but im ( Read more... )

so how bored am i with life right now, i need to revamp it. do u think TLC has a show for like overhauling your life? cuz i would definately try to get on that.

long day. started off bad. pretty late cuz of the shooting on state st. and the crack heads that stole copper piping out of an abandon home, which that pipe was gas. so that street was shut down. got my test back from procedures. A- so i'm pumped. noone gets any kind of A's and its awesome to know that one of the two grades we will get is alrdy an ( Read more... )

wow, how gratifying is it to come home after working all day and taking a huge s*it. wow, i feel my day is complete. this week is almost done. im getting sick of this fucking diet, i hate cravings.

ok, so that last entry is bullshit. i got called into work at like 7-730 in the fucking morning. that is bullshit, i just want to sleep again. i miss sleep. sleep is good.

8 hrs of sleep in four days all in all isnt so bad. working for 26 hrs in 3 days, still ok. up all nite studying for a criminal procedure midterm, could be worse. but ending this all with a keg up at umass w/ a vanillas invited, makes for one long ass week. i am beat. and in proper fashion GAME OVER. ealry morning w/ tanya, nite everyone.