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[tabbycakes]

Damn it sammy...it was 5:30 am. I want to apologize for my actions last night. I know I shouldn't have left the bar...but i wasn't comfortable there. I didn't realize how badly my head was fucked until last night. There's still no excuse, I've met some amazing people lately and I let some of them down last night. I think staying would have

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[lingrnginsilnce]

Tab... a lot of shit went down after you left. it really wasnt you, and while i was really disappointed that you had to go, i can totally understand it. you dont have to defend yourself or your actions to me, or anyone else as far as im concerned. i also tend to be a tad dramatic when ive been drinking, especially when someone pisses me off or irritates me (aka hurts my feelings, which i would never openly admit could be done by a relative stranger). im truly sorry that it made you feel shitty; that wasn't my goal at all. i happened to have a very... "interesting" night at the bar (i can't think of another word for it)... and got just a leeeeeeetle bit played. ok i'm lying, it was a super lot. *shrug* what can ya do.

i guess i have to add something in here. i wasnt just disappinted that you left. i was annoyed by the fact that you so obviously lied about why you didnt want to stay; i figured we had gotten to a pretty good trust and friendship level, which to me would have meant that you didnt need or want to lie about that sort of

[tabbycakes]

I think that by me not telling you the reason i was leaving wasn't that I was trying to hide it from you. It was more that I was lying to myself if that makes sense. I didn't want to believe that I could be effected by something so incredibly stupid. I didn't to believe that ONE persons actions could make me feel so worthless. Because I know deep down that I"m better than that. So I"m sorry i wasn't upfront, i just couldn't say outloud what i was thinking. I took the easy way out. It had nothing to do with the trust in our friendship but more in my pride, which gets in the way a lot...

[tabbycakes]

and getting played sucks...I totally feel played but not by a complete stranger...I wish I had been smart enough to walk away when I first felt the urge had i done that...i'd be in a much better space right now

[lingrnginsilnce]

i understand. really. i promise, there will be no permanent emotional scarring on my part. i'm pretty resilient. ;-)

[ice762001]

I said hello to you...I went to the bathroom...no more tab...lol. It's all good dude on my end. I understand shit like that...trust me! We'll have to chill sometime soon, k?

[tabbycakes]

i would love to hang out soon! :) let me know when and where and i'm all over it!

[ice762001]

right on...my days off are always Sundays and Mondays, what about you?

[tabbycakes]

typically they are sat/sun...however i'm transitioning jobs and as of right now i don't have a day off until the 25th...but I have nights off all the time...