Day 6: I'm Gay

[tabbymarie]

So. For those who aren't aware... I'm gay. Moreover and more specifically, I am more attracted to females than males

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[tabbymarie]

I can try it on... it just doesn't feel good.

[zuckussgand]

You probably didn't know that I still read your LJ from time to time, but I do. I just wanted to offer you a short message of hope

[tabbymarie]

I didn't know that you did. It's funny because on my way home tonight I thought "I wonder if any of my old college friends ever read my journal anymore?" And so now we know. :)

The thought came to me because one of our former colleagues on facebook decided to inform me that I should "give it up" on proposition 8, that it failed twice. That's really what sparked this journal entry.

I really do look forward to the day that we see homosexuals being treated equally.

I think tomorrow I might post an entry on equality because, being involved with a unique women's movement currently that seeks to find a different kind of equality, a balance, with the male principle, I'm seeing equality in a whole new light. I'm seeing responsibility in a whole new light.

Thank you so much for your encouraging words!

I really DO want to do a big ol' reunion one of these days. Maybe I'll plan it for a year or so. :)

[tabbymarie]

THanks!

[secretvandalist]

That was truly inspiring to hear such honesty from a person, thank you so much for that. I think many of us have things we're ashamed of and it takes years sometimes not only to face them but to accept them in ourselves. What you describe is a human experience that can cripple so many people simply out of prejudices projected in our society which as you say threatens our capacity for joy. However, you have overcome it and that is a tremendously beautiful thing.

I wish that I could be as lucky to one day find peace in the experiences I have had and to feel acceptance in myself as well. :-D

[tabbymarie]

If it helps, the question I often try to ask myself is "whats the worst that can happen if people know this?"

Rarely does it actually come down to death.

[hoshi_reed]

What threatens your joy?

I guess it was growing up and being pagan.

I felt the most fear/sadness from a "bible-thumper" because I had a crush on him and desperately didn't want to lose him as a friend. Ironically, he was like you, denying his homosexuality and thinking it would go away and acted MORE devout to stamp out "sin" in others. Sometime in the last decade he learned to accept himself and others.