yo. what's the deal with that ( Read more... )

poor dead flower? when did you forget you were a flower? when did you look at your skin and decide you were an impotent dirty locomotive? the ghost of a locomotive? the specter and shade of a once powerful mad American locomotive?

i was glancing through my copy of howl and that line from "sunflower sutra" spoke to me. kinda down and feeling lost, ( Read more... )

"going out" last saturday night consisted of: author reading at kgb bar with a few good friends, followed by a cocktail party on the lower east side with twenty and thirty-somethings (random). got home at twelve, as i felt like a tool trying to get into a party at laf that was probably pretty lame anyway ( Read more... )

loving this rufus song right now:

No matter how strong, I'm gonna take you down with one little stone ( Read more... )

forgot to say that next thursday will be lovely, as i will be seeing my therapist at 11am and then going back to my high school to say hello to a few teachers whom i truly care about. i miss that place... it's a weird sense of nostalgia i have for high school, because i hated it so much while i was there, but i feel so lucky to have had the ( Read more... )

tonight:
-4 pages (out of 8) on my moby-dick paper
-read last 10 pages of m-d (why didn't i just finish this fucking mammoth of a book already?? 10 pages?? umm, can we say ADD?!)
-brit lit II reading for tomorrow (last day of classes!!)

wednesday:
-go to statistics prof's office hours; cry/beg for a passing grade
-finish moby-dick paper
-finish ( Read more... )

amazing realization: i don't miss a certain person as much as i thought i did, but merely the idea of someone finding me attractive and caring (slightly, if at all) about me is what i miss. yeah. it's a wonderful discovery because i don't have to spend so much time being sad about someone who a) isn't as wonderful as i want him to be, b) might be ( Read more... )

1. feeling tired, despite copious amounts of caffeine and unfinished reading... ugh? whatever ( Read more... )

1. having a vacation to look forward to: thanksgiving '06, baby. it's gonna be sweet: the catskills, jen, mom's stuffing, a day or two to breathe ( Read more... )

1. chris, for being just like me. it's lovely to spend time with someone with so much in common.
2. the wasted crowd on the 6 train at 2am.
3. jane austen's wit.
4. julia z., for being a genuine human being.
5. sunday naps.

i miss jen. that's all.