So yeah. Things are getting a bit better. Issues are getting resolved. I refuse to say they're all fixed yet because that's bad for me. Everytime I say that something gets fucked so I'm not letting myself get too happy about things being resolved. I'm taking it all in stride. It's good to see Alex doing better. Everything should work out ok ( Read more... )

Well I'm off to bed to get plenty rested so that I can keep up this visage I'm wearing. I can keep faking it forever if I choose to. She should be proud though. I always thought I was a pretty strong person. I was positive, upbeat, and no single person could bring me down. However she's broken me. For that she should be proud. Nobody else ( Read more... )

WOO HOO for being about two steps away from killing someone. Either random or planned I don't really care. I hate bitching I hate whining but yet it feels so good so I'm going to do it. Any of you who feel that I'm complaining too much or being whiny by posting all my life's problems in a journal instead of dealing with them can go sit on a ( Read more... )

Karma better watch its fucking back...

Things will work out. This I have dubbed and nobody can deny me it. I get denied too much and this is one thing I won't let slip away. Therefore things will work out. The talk went well and I think my point was made very clear about the way I felt I was being treated. She said she understood and had never looked at it that way. She told me ( Read more... )

God this hurts so bad ( Read more... )

Glory glory I love the way things are going ( Read more... )

I'm far too drunk to be posting things. I shouldn't express thoughts in this condition but I don't care. I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm going to like... kill myself. Being told by your mother (in not so many words) that you're a disappointment and a failure isn't exactly something that's easy to handle. Especially when I always thought I was ( Read more... )

Alright goddammit I've had enough of this ( Read more... )

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