So Beautiful // 4
Title : So Beautiful
Pairing : 2MIN
Rating : PG
Chapters : 4 // 8
Author : dribbledrabs
Authors Note : footprints on the glass. [ i was inspired by a story ]
its short i know but its like a key chapter so I didn't want to push it too much.
Its midnight, he’s still sleeping. I walk over to the bed and pull a chair so that I’m seated next to him.
How long had I known Minho for , slightly over two weeks. It shouldn’t be important , time does not determine closeness with anyone. His lying there motionless, I’m scared that he’s not breathing , but the incessant machine sticks as a reminder that he is still with us.
His hair is short cropped neatly to shape his head, probably so that it wouldn’t get in the way when he played. Even with his eyes shut you could see their fullness. The most captivating part of his face was his jawline , it spelt perfection in a variety of languages. Sharp and flawless , it cam accompanied with the lips that looked so soft , you had to stop yourself from reaching out to them so that you wouldn’t brush your fingers across them just.
“ Minho hyung “ I whisper , some part of me hoped it would nudge that little part of his brain and wake him from his slumber but just like the two days that had passed I got nothing in return.
No one had come to visit him, besides his coach and team mates. It was a messy awkward visit. The whole team came together flowers in tow as the stood around the bed. I’m sure they didn’t know what to do. Their team captain and school’s Ace was down. They told us that we were in the finals anyway because they had scored enough from the previous match so the were automatically pushed to the finals. At least when he woke up , he wouldn’t have any regrets towards the match. They took turns to give him a pat on the hand , giving words of encouragement and prayers.
Jinki thanked them for coming , and told their coach he would let them know the moment Minho stirred. We said our byes and they left.
I look at him motionless as my hand runs over to meet his. They are coarse and rough and slightly cold, I wondered how the felt when they were warm. They must be perfect. My eyes are heavy I had barely slept. The older ones were just outside talking to the doctor yet again, we decided not to inform his family , Jonghyun said he would have hated that and it would make things worst.
There’s a knock on the door and Key steps in. I pull my hand away just in time.
“ Tae , we’re going to the doctors office to discuss somethings would you be alright by yourself ? “
“ Of course hyung , we’re in a hospital, nothing could wrong “
He smiles reminding me to eat then he closes the door and leaves.
My hand returns to Minho’s giving it a slight squeeze.
“ wake up please, everyone’s worried “ my mutters come out almost soundless, he wouldn’t hear me anyway.
Time passes and I’m still looking at him , too afraid to tear my eye away.
I groan at the pain in my neck , someone brushes my hair aside telling me to wake up.
“ key hyung pleaseee five more minutes , my whole body is aching. “
“ I’m not surprised. “
The voice is not Key’s , its lower , huskier , like as though it comes from the feet - just like Jinki hyung told me.
My eyes snap open and I’m sitting up right staring into a face that seemed very amused at my reaction a deep chuckle emitting from his lips.
I’m not the only one who realises he’s awake. Jinki heard the laugh and wakes up suddenly leaping over as he grabs Minho into a hug almost crying , telling the younger one how goddamn worried he had been the last three days. The other two are awake now , key smiling and ruffling Minho’s hair.
The warm smile changes entirely when his eye lay on Jonghyun, its not anger and hate.
Its guilt.
“ You shouldn’t be here “ the words are harsh.
“ I saw the news , you left without a word Minho “ Jonghyun walks over to the bed so that they can speak better.
“ What is it to you “
Jinki looks surprised at his stubbornness in the answer.
“ Minho , its been 4 years when are you going get better “ he cares nothing for the boys anger.
“ Nothing is wrong with me, go back to where you came from “ Minho talks like Jonghyun has dug his way out of a dirty forgotten past that he doesn’t want to be reminded.
“ Fuck Minho ! You collapsed out in the open , I thought it stopped happening already , You’re just lucky there were people around you what if you were alone , haven’t you thought about that ! Shit ! “
“ I would just be dead , don’t see anything wrong with that “
There is a loud resounding slap. The noise bounces of the walls and everyone is quiet. Minho’s face is downcast , eyes to the floor. Jonghyun just staring.
“ Don’t you ever fucking talk like that Choi Min Ho , we did not spend the last three days worrying like fuck over you to hear you say that, a thankyou would have suffice “
Key is breathless as he tries hard to speak and verbalise his anger. Jinki is hurt he doesn’t even bother to drag Key out with him and walks out himself. I’m not angry , just curious and confused, maybe hurt too.
Jonghyun grabs Minho’s wrist, gently.
“ It wasn’t your fault “
The patient keeps quiet and refuses to speak.
Key tugs on my hand , I nod my head and we leave the room.
Jinki is sitting quietly in a chair just outside. I sit across him while Key sits beside him, taking Jinki’s hands in his.
“ I’ve never see him like that before Key . What happened “
“ He’ll tell us soon. I’m sure or we could try asking Jonghyun again “
I look up at them , Jonghyun’s words were gnawing at my brain,
“ Hyung “ I call out to him, my voice quivering with a sudden realisation.
My brother looks up at me offering a smile, waiting for my question.
“ Hyung , what if it happens again and no one is around “
He doesn’t know how to answer , neither does Jinki , the both look at each other and back at me the same realisation hitting them.
Jinki lets out a frustrated sigh and presses his head further into the palm of his hands.
An hour must have passed Jonghyun walks out , he looks as frustrated as when we left him.
He walks to the vending machine and buys a drink asking us if we wanted anything. The coffee is warm in my hand when he passes it to me and I sip at it slowly.
“ What happened ? “ Jinki asks, he can’t wait around for an answer, he couldn’t just sit around waiting for the day MInho felt like telling him.
“ I … fuck its …..I “ Joghyun is stammering , I can tell he really wants to tell us but he’s afraid.
“ It won’t change anything “ I speak up , surprised at my own calmness “ It won’t change anything between us if thats what your worried about “
He smiles and gives my hand a light squeeze.
Looking right and Jinki he starts to talk.
“ Minho had a twin brother “
I couldn’t imagine another person who looked exactly like him , the same perfection, the same everything.
“ they looked exactly alike if you didn’t know them you’d never tell them apart. I grew up with them because our parents were friends “
The corridor is silent and you can only hear the vending machine rattling away.
“Min Woo, was the complete opposite of Min Ho , he was quiet and reserved. He never like crowded places or attention always keeping to himself. But people would never miss him not when he looked like his high flying brother. Minho was into sports , Minwoo was in to the arts. Minho would be running around the field winning medals and attention, Minwoo would lock himself up in the studio and paint all day, he was gifted in that way. “
“ what happened to him “ Key asks this time , is voice is almost a whisper.
“ It was in high school , before JInki transferred there. I remember you , you were always with Minho for the last year or so “ he talks to Jinki now , and the older boy nods in reply. “ It happened before you joined our school “
“ It was a normal day in school , we were just going about our classes. Its break , and we’re hanging around the foyer talking and messing around. Theres a loud scream , somebody is pointing upwards, we look up, Minwoo is standing on the edge of the building “
My hand ran to my ears, what kind of sick story was this, but my hands eventually falls to my side , I wanted to know.
“ Minho dashes up to the roof to grab him down , they’re talking , we don’t know what they’re saying , I can see Minwoo turning around looking at his brother but he throws himself off the building , there are more screams people crying. All of us are crying. “
All of us now are shocked beyond hope.
“ Twins, people have proven all this while that they’re always connected to each other some how, the can sense their twin’s thoughts and feelings , even after death. Minho’s mental focus has never accepted his brothers death , his body will laps into artificial death as if mimicking Minwoo. Its a mental illness, the doctors have tried very hard. “
I’m not sure if I even believe what he is saying cause it sounds impossible, then I think of Minho’s body shutting down into death mode and know nothing is impossible.
Key’s hand flies to his mouth , Jinki looks completely shocked by the information.
“ How could Minho leave something out like that ?! “
“ He has never spoken of it to anyone , he refused to talk to us after it happened , I guess he was comfortable with you because you didn’t know anything. “
“ I thought I was his closest friend “
“ You are probably very important to him thats why he never told you “
“ I killed my own brother , is that what you wanted to know all this while ? “ The voice is filled with hurt and remorse. Our heads look across to the door ,Minho is standing there weakly like he’d fall over I unconsciously run to his side and hold him.
“ You didn’t “ only he hears me , but he shakes he head.
“ Go home Jonghyun, I don’t need you to stand here reminding me of what I did “
_____________________________________________
It was a long day , Jonghyun left , Onew and Key said they’d send him home. I sat alone with Minho is the room
Minho is sitting by the window staring out at the park below it. He breathes out on the glass and watches it fog up , before drawing on it.
“ When were young we would print small feet on the window’s glass in winter, then in summer if you looked carefully at a certain you can see them , we both loved it , sometimes we’d leave secret messages waiting for the other to read them. Minwoo was always walking after me , I was the older twin , he always waked behind me chasing my footprints every since we were children. Maybe he gave up chasing “
I walk over to him , I felt drawn to him , like he was gravity and I was a mere feather floating around eventually lending on the earth because he was calling out to me . Carefully I slip my hand into his and holds it.
Its not for me to ask or probe but I ask anyway.
“ Did he tell you why ? “
He shakes his head and leans against the cold window.
“ Thats the worst part of it all isn’t it “
Pairing : 2MIN
Rating : PG
Chapters : 4 // 8
Author : dribbledrabs
Authors Note : footprints on the glass. [ i was inspired by a story ]
its short i know but its like a key chapter so I didn't want to push it too much.
Its midnight, he’s still sleeping. I walk over to the bed and pull a chair so that I’m seated next to him.
How long had I known Minho for , slightly over two weeks. It shouldn’t be important , time does not determine closeness with anyone. His lying there motionless, I’m scared that he’s not breathing , but the incessant machine sticks as a reminder that he is still with us.
His hair is short cropped neatly to shape his head, probably so that it wouldn’t get in the way when he played. Even with his eyes shut you could see their fullness. The most captivating part of his face was his jawline , it spelt perfection in a variety of languages. Sharp and flawless , it cam accompanied with the lips that looked so soft , you had to stop yourself from reaching out to them so that you wouldn’t brush your fingers across them just.
“ Minho hyung “ I whisper , some part of me hoped it would nudge that little part of his brain and wake him from his slumber but just like the two days that had passed I got nothing in return.
No one had come to visit him, besides his coach and team mates. It was a messy awkward visit. The whole team came together flowers in tow as the stood around the bed. I’m sure they didn’t know what to do. Their team captain and school’s Ace was down. They told us that we were in the finals anyway because they had scored enough from the previous match so the were automatically pushed to the finals. At least when he woke up , he wouldn’t have any regrets towards the match. They took turns to give him a pat on the hand , giving words of encouragement and prayers.
Jinki thanked them for coming , and told their coach he would let them know the moment Minho stirred. We said our byes and they left.
I look at him motionless as my hand runs over to meet his. They are coarse and rough and slightly cold, I wondered how the felt when they were warm. They must be perfect. My eyes are heavy I had barely slept. The older ones were just outside talking to the doctor yet again, we decided not to inform his family , Jonghyun said he would have hated that and it would make things worst.
There’s a knock on the door and Key steps in. I pull my hand away just in time.
“ Tae , we’re going to the doctors office to discuss somethings would you be alright by yourself ? “
“ Of course hyung , we’re in a hospital, nothing could wrong “
He smiles reminding me to eat then he closes the door and leaves.
My hand returns to Minho’s giving it a slight squeeze.
“ wake up please, everyone’s worried “ my mutters come out almost soundless, he wouldn’t hear me anyway.
Time passes and I’m still looking at him , too afraid to tear my eye away.
I groan at the pain in my neck , someone brushes my hair aside telling me to wake up.
“ key hyung pleaseee five more minutes , my whole body is aching. “
“ I’m not surprised. “
The voice is not Key’s , its lower , huskier , like as though it comes from the feet - just like Jinki hyung told me.
My eyes snap open and I’m sitting up right staring into a face that seemed very amused at my reaction a deep chuckle emitting from his lips.
I’m not the only one who realises he’s awake. Jinki heard the laugh and wakes up suddenly leaping over as he grabs Minho into a hug almost crying , telling the younger one how goddamn worried he had been the last three days. The other two are awake now , key smiling and ruffling Minho’s hair.
The warm smile changes entirely when his eye lay on Jonghyun, its not anger and hate.
Its guilt.
“ You shouldn’t be here “ the words are harsh.
“ I saw the news , you left without a word Minho “ Jonghyun walks over to the bed so that they can speak better.
“ What is it to you “
Jinki looks surprised at his stubbornness in the answer.
“ Minho , its been 4 years when are you going get better “ he cares nothing for the boys anger.
“ Nothing is wrong with me, go back to where you came from “ Minho talks like Jonghyun has dug his way out of a dirty forgotten past that he doesn’t want to be reminded.
“ Fuck Minho ! You collapsed out in the open , I thought it stopped happening already , You’re just lucky there were people around you what if you were alone , haven’t you thought about that ! Shit ! “
“ I would just be dead , don’t see anything wrong with that “
There is a loud resounding slap. The noise bounces of the walls and everyone is quiet. Minho’s face is downcast , eyes to the floor. Jonghyun just staring.
“ Don’t you ever fucking talk like that Choi Min Ho , we did not spend the last three days worrying like fuck over you to hear you say that, a thankyou would have suffice “
Key is breathless as he tries hard to speak and verbalise his anger. Jinki is hurt he doesn’t even bother to drag Key out with him and walks out himself. I’m not angry , just curious and confused, maybe hurt too.
Jonghyun grabs Minho’s wrist, gently.
“ It wasn’t your fault “
The patient keeps quiet and refuses to speak.
Key tugs on my hand , I nod my head and we leave the room.
Jinki is sitting quietly in a chair just outside. I sit across him while Key sits beside him, taking Jinki’s hands in his.
“ I’ve never see him like that before Key . What happened “
“ He’ll tell us soon. I’m sure or we could try asking Jonghyun again “
I look up at them , Jonghyun’s words were gnawing at my brain,
“ Hyung “ I call out to him, my voice quivering with a sudden realisation.
My brother looks up at me offering a smile, waiting for my question.
“ Hyung , what if it happens again and no one is around “
He doesn’t know how to answer , neither does Jinki , the both look at each other and back at me the same realisation hitting them.
Jinki lets out a frustrated sigh and presses his head further into the palm of his hands.
An hour must have passed Jonghyun walks out , he looks as frustrated as when we left him.
He walks to the vending machine and buys a drink asking us if we wanted anything. The coffee is warm in my hand when he passes it to me and I sip at it slowly.
“ What happened ? “ Jinki asks, he can’t wait around for an answer, he couldn’t just sit around waiting for the day MInho felt like telling him.
“ I … fuck its …..I “ Joghyun is stammering , I can tell he really wants to tell us but he’s afraid.
“ It won’t change anything “ I speak up , surprised at my own calmness “ It won’t change anything between us if thats what your worried about “
He smiles and gives my hand a light squeeze.
Looking right and Jinki he starts to talk.
“ Minho had a twin brother “
I couldn’t imagine another person who looked exactly like him , the same perfection, the same everything.
“ they looked exactly alike if you didn’t know them you’d never tell them apart. I grew up with them because our parents were friends “
The corridor is silent and you can only hear the vending machine rattling away.
“Min Woo, was the complete opposite of Min Ho , he was quiet and reserved. He never like crowded places or attention always keeping to himself. But people would never miss him not when he looked like his high flying brother. Minho was into sports , Minwoo was in to the arts. Minho would be running around the field winning medals and attention, Minwoo would lock himself up in the studio and paint all day, he was gifted in that way. “
“ what happened to him “ Key asks this time , is voice is almost a whisper.
“ It was in high school , before JInki transferred there. I remember you , you were always with Minho for the last year or so “ he talks to Jinki now , and the older boy nods in reply. “ It happened before you joined our school “
“ It was a normal day in school , we were just going about our classes. Its break , and we’re hanging around the foyer talking and messing around. Theres a loud scream , somebody is pointing upwards, we look up, Minwoo is standing on the edge of the building “
My hand ran to my ears, what kind of sick story was this, but my hands eventually falls to my side , I wanted to know.
“ Minho dashes up to the roof to grab him down , they’re talking , we don’t know what they’re saying , I can see Minwoo turning around looking at his brother but he throws himself off the building , there are more screams people crying. All of us are crying. “
All of us now are shocked beyond hope.
“ Twins, people have proven all this while that they’re always connected to each other some how, the can sense their twin’s thoughts and feelings , even after death. Minho’s mental focus has never accepted his brothers death , his body will laps into artificial death as if mimicking Minwoo. Its a mental illness, the doctors have tried very hard. “
I’m not sure if I even believe what he is saying cause it sounds impossible, then I think of Minho’s body shutting down into death mode and know nothing is impossible.
Key’s hand flies to his mouth , Jinki looks completely shocked by the information.
“ How could Minho leave something out like that ?! “
“ He has never spoken of it to anyone , he refused to talk to us after it happened , I guess he was comfortable with you because you didn’t know anything. “
“ I thought I was his closest friend “
“ You are probably very important to him thats why he never told you “
“ I killed my own brother , is that what you wanted to know all this while ? “ The voice is filled with hurt and remorse. Our heads look across to the door ,Minho is standing there weakly like he’d fall over I unconsciously run to his side and hold him.
“ You didn’t “ only he hears me , but he shakes he head.
“ Go home Jonghyun, I don’t need you to stand here reminding me of what I did “
_____________________________________________
It was a long day , Jonghyun left , Onew and Key said they’d send him home. I sat alone with Minho is the room
Minho is sitting by the window staring out at the park below it. He breathes out on the glass and watches it fog up , before drawing on it.
“ When were young we would print small feet on the window’s glass in winter, then in summer if you looked carefully at a certain you can see them , we both loved it , sometimes we’d leave secret messages waiting for the other to read them. Minwoo was always walking after me , I was the older twin , he always waked behind me chasing my footprints every since we were children. Maybe he gave up chasing “
I walk over to him , I felt drawn to him , like he was gravity and I was a mere feather floating around eventually lending on the earth because he was calling out to me . Carefully I slip my hand into his and holds it.
Its not for me to ask or probe but I ask anyway.
“ Did he tell you why ? “
He shakes his head and leans against the cold window.
“ Thats the worst part of it all isn’t it “