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you might want to only read this if you have about 15 minutes to spend, its worth it, trust me
you should of never trusted hollywood*
all you maggots,smoking faggots on santa monica boulavard
all you bitches, put your hands in the air and wave them like you just dont care
my sweet revenge,
will be yours, for the taking, its in the making
that was pretty much pointless since none of you listen to system of a down annyway <3
this summer has pretty much sucked balls, besides hanging with my baby matt and ... shelly and kristen and, whatever else, but thats pretty much it since everyone is ... "too busy" to remeber me anyway
seriously, everyone tell me ONE exciting thing that you have done with a friend from school that you promised you would hang out everyday, talk to them every day.. promised you would see them EVERYDAY... its not all we thought it was, or wished it was
all i know is that, i miss shelly so so so much its like..depression i need her like... a fat kid needs salad on tuesday in the rain dancing naked home alone......... ......... i hope that made you smile
theres this FUCKING annoying beeping noise and i cant seem to figure out what it is... damn....
nothing to say.. mmhmm... besides me,matt,and my mother are all going shopping on saturday and i cant wait,
uhh.. im getting a hair cut too?
FOR ALL OF YOU THAT ARE IN LOVE, WANT TO BE IN LOVE, WANT TO REALLY KNOW HOW I FEEL, if you have alot of time on your hands, read this, dont read half and then stop reading because theres no point in that, read it or dont, but its just my way of speaking my mind, because isnt that what livejournals are about anyway?
besides the point, i love matt, hes practiclly my life and i have no idea where i would be without him, since he'll probly never read this i can spill my heart out all over this like a obbsessed litltle girl, ((which i am)) he always knows how to make me smile, hes the best thing that has ever happend to me, next to my friends...... his smile, his laugh , seeing him look at me the way he does is what makes my day , the way we can be so ..passionate about the littlest things , too how we can wrestle and laugh until we get too tired to speak , the way we dont care whos watching us anymore, the way ill be in my kitchen and he'll pop up out of no where and next thing you know, were making out in my kitchen, the way we caan stay up for hours, talking about anything in this world or if were just in silence watching t.v., just being on the phone with him, speaking or not, its just so great, when we do talk , it seems like it never ends, practiclly every night either were on the phone until 3am or hes at my house until 2 am i love the way we act around eachother we can be ourselfes and have no worries about anything, but sometimes you get that weird nervous feeling, i love the way he makes my heart race when he shows up at my door, that feeling you get right on your heart that makes you say, wow, im in love with this kid, i love that connection we have, during the most awkward moments from , us eating chick-fil-a or us rolling around on my bed together , those moments you get when you picture you both together forever , having kids, living together, being married, those are those are the lttle moments that mean so much to me , its so hard to put a emotion into writing, thats how i know its so true, i love being in love with him, i just dont want to get hurt, but the way things are looknig right now, i have nothing to be afraid of , im trying so hard to be everything he ever wants in a girl, and i hope hes happy with who i am , i might not be as good as a girlfriend as previosu ones, but im trying so hard to be the best girlfriend he could ever ask for and if there was anythnig he wanted different about me, i would strive to do it, usually people tell you not to change who you are to please some one else, well its hard, bcuz since you care about this one speical person so much you would do anything possible to see them smile at the way that says, this is who i want to be with for the rest of my life he is the most important thing on my mind and i wouldnt change a thing about him, hes he most perfect thing that has ever happend to me, ((sides shelly<3)) he can see me at my worst, and tell me i look hott, thats all i neeed, hes the ... i feel like im saying the same thing over and over , but this huge paragraph isnt even half of what is on my mind about him, i feel like im dreaming, that this is to good to be true, that after 4 months of writing his name on all my folders, watching him around every corner , runnig to all my friends and spilling it all out jut to feel like all these feelings wernt a waste, these are those things that you never want to see fall apart, i pray that this lasts forever and we can stay like this until the day i say goodbye....
im sorry if i wasted your time...