Yesterday I went to the hospital to see my First Hero. I meant to stay for only an hour just to hear what the doctor would say and to find out when they would fly him to Cleveland. I stayed all day, in my work clothes, dress and heals like a small child playing grownup I sat, I watched, walked, talked,  and never left. Finally at 6pm my hero was ( Read more... )

once again the river swift , tears fall and wash away
hearts ache pushing desperately through the chest thump thump thump
the beat visible, hard and heavy. crows streak the sky back and forth back and forth back and forth
timing,beating wings and beating heart, belying human existence with the simplicity/complexity of their existence

It is with sadness that I look upon the beauty outside my window. Beautiful balloons float by in a clear brisk morning, sky bright blue and the full moon shines in the distant sky. The nest of crows watch the spectical from atop the tall green tree. The wind is blowing fast pulling bright colors and comical shapes quickly by....the meaning of it ( Read more... )

We were all off work July 3rd-July 6th. we spent a lot of the time in the garden cleaning things up and taking things down or potting the plants that will go with us, We looked at couches, tables, signed papers, discussed what needs to go on Craigs list and what will be included in the garage sale.  On the 4th we had lunch at Independence grill (* ( Read more... )

In another strange quandary. woke up yesterday certain that we needed to make one more effort to stay in the house we are in and perhaps cancel the purchase of another house......ACK !!!!!  where the hell is my head ( Read more... )

Ohhhh yeah Music, ok now I feel so much better!   I don't remember a moment that I didn't need music, to sooth to hold to live to organize thought.... and yet it surprises me how often I try to live in the world, without it ( Read more... )

I watched the sun come up from my office window. It is a stunning spring day, clear and bright and yet..... I truly hate tax season.... no REALLY ( Read more... )

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

Again for the second time in a couple of days, at that first moment of news, I am hit with above W.H. Auden quote.

As I typed away in my office overlooking the most beautiful ( Read more... )

Somehow when I came downstairs this morning I noticed 2 snowman pot holders lying on the floor ???? Haven't seen those in years, thought we gave them away at some point. I saw them but didn't pick them up,  just registered for later retrieval

husband and daughter leaving together this morning; Husband says "Look honey Snowmen" and daughter says, ( Read more... )

 To this day I am allowing my X to control me. Occationally I have to communicate regarding the children and then I wait and wait and the longer I wait the more angry I get that he is such a careless absent father. When he finally responds it is all that I can do to force myself to open it ( Read more... )