You know, I would like to die ( Read more... )

I’m back.
I’ve cleared my head, a lot.

Well, I decided to go back into my music and creations.

I’m out of school for the summer, so this is a great shot.

If I had one wish it would be not to knowledge the world in which I’m bound in. Ever since you left, I have felt this change. This felling that consumes me, it feels like…f   r   e  e  d  o  m

                Today, I have to say, the rest returned to me. For the past nearly two hours I’ve been listening to music, mostly Dir en grey, to get a steady bass beat in my head. You would be surprised on how much this actually does help you, just sitting listening to the sound, studying every beat. It’s… interesting.
                 I’ve came ( Read more... )

SIXX:A.M.

"Permission"

I apologize
That your memory serves you more than I can now
You'll have to make sense of my life somehow
Yeah, somehow

Well, I close my eyes
Remove each piece of armor one by one
Inhale this moment deep into my lungs
Make amends for all I've done

All of my devils are free at last
And all my secrets revealed
And your ( Read more... )

I practically broke down and simply had to move my computer back into my room. I’m tired of the stress this family is giving me. I know this is an important time for everyone because my grandmother is having lung surgery, but honestly, I cannot cope with how they’re treating this ( Read more... )

ザクロ

声を出して叫んだ 貴方の名前
きっと届かないわね 私の声さえも
でもね 今はそれでも私はいいの
何時か 心の中で貴方を

夢を今夜も見るわ 貴方の夢を
枕の下に置いた 貴方の手紙のせい
夢は残酷すぎて 息が途切れ
何時も午前4時半 苦しく目が覚めるわ

時は永すぎて
時は辛すぎて
夢は止まらない
愛は凍えて逝くの
冷えた夜
こんなに永い夜には

意識が千切れて
粉々になって
思い出を散らし
貴方の指輪 握り締める程に
涙が枕を濡らす

聞こえない様に 耳を塞いでた
貴方の声を
手首の傷跡
又1つ増えて
傷に溶け込んでいく 貴方

私は壊れる 手紙燃やし 灰になる
私は壊れる 心壊し 灰になる
私は壊れる 貴方を無くし 愛してる

These days are boring without you. I need a cure.

1/7/08 ( Read more... )

Some how going back to my old music always comforts me; as for now Miyavi’s POP is Dead will be my comforter. Then I’ll move to some English stuff, My chemical Romance.
Whoa. I just wrote Michael while trying to write out My chemical. >.He’s on my mind again I guess. We had another fight, well.. of course as usual, I was fighting, he was ignoring ( Read more... )