I'm trying to be serious here. For once xD
WARNING. This Post is kinda angsty and might be…idk…not graphic but rough. Uhmmm contains butthurt? xD
So LJ. I’m here to talk about BULLYING.
Because apparently it’s a big topic right now in Texas. I’m not going to be all wishy washy and be like “Don’t bully because it hurts people’s feelings” Well I mean, DON’T because it does hurt but I’m not trying to be all cheesy you know?
I’M NOT MEAINING TO SOUND LIKE AN INSENSATIVE BITCH OKAY?
xD
I just want to know…what about bullying has changed?
I mean, bullying has been happening forever. So why is everyone making a big fuss NOW. I mean, yes. Kids are threatening to commit suicide because of it, but they always have.
Why the late response?
I remember elementary school and middle school. Not for good reasons.
I was bullied like no one else was ever bullied (xD not really but it was horrible).
I would get pushed down staircases, locked inside utility closets, my uniform would get taken while I was changing from Gym class and the bully people would throw my uniform in the toilet. I would get cornered and people would beat me up, hit me with things, tie me up and gag me then throw me in the school’s attic and leave me there until I managed to get out myself or the nice Janitor guy found me. Me and him were BFF's.
My books were stolen and written in with statements like “Go away. No one likes you. You’re not as special as you think. You’re ugly. Go die. Never come back.” My homework would get taken and torn or written all over and my lunch often had dirt poured into it or it was thrown away.
I remember going home from school crying because I sure as hell didn’t want to give those kids the satisfaction of seeing me cry. I told my parents I wanted to die. And they just said “Oh you only have a few more years left…”
I wish I was exaggerating. I’m not. Elementary and Middle school was complete hell for me.
And I want to know, where were all these anti-bullying campaigns back then? I’m sure I wasn’t the only one getting bullied. Several of my close friends mentioned the same thing: that they were bullied and no one seemed to care. At my school, the teachers didn’t care because they were friends with those students’ parents and used to babysit those students. I would tell my parents but they couldn’t afford to send me anywhere else.
So how come everyone is making a big deal now?
America (Or maybe it's just Texas...), you’re a bit late on this aren’t you.
So I want to know, have any of you ever been bullied? Are you as frustrated as I am? I’m all for this campaign, don’t get me wrong but…I’m a bit disappointed on why we're acting so late on this issue, you know?
I really did not want this to be a downer post xD Arghhh I fail lol.
Let's see if I can change the direction.
The after effects of bullying stay with the person. For 10 years, I kept thinking I was a horrible person, I was ugly, I was untalented, or something was wrong with me because I was bullied for so long.
But you guys:
Not to be conceited or anyting, but I'm freaking gorgeous xD And I'm smart, talented, and a wonderful person.
The sad thing is, I had to learn all of that three years ago before I finally believed it myself.
I still can't really talk to people or make friends easily because I'm so scared that they'll use/abuse/backstab me. But sometimes, I can block that out. And make wonderful friends like:
YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE.
So. Because I want to make sure you guys understand why this is all frustrating to me, I hope you realize everything others say about you is a lie.
Because you're all wonderful. Beautiful. Smart. Funny. Powerful. Loveable. And just super AMAZING.
Don't let other people tell you what you're NOT. Even if it's your parents or an adult figure. YOU ARE YOU.
NOt what others think you are, but what YOU think you are. don't let them morph you into what they see you as.
If you want to live your life thinking you're a purple fuzzy platypus, DO IT.
(and seriously, be my friend because I think that'd be epic.)
♥♥♥