Missing Chances (Ch. 20)
Title: Missing ChancesChapter: 20/22
Pairing: Yesung/Hangeng, Many side pairings
Rating: PG
Genre: VERY AU High School, Romance, Humor, mild angst, and um many more
Disclaimer: own no one -sobs-
Summary: Yesung likes Ryeowook, Kyuhyun likes Ryeowook. So to make sure Kyuhyun gets time and attention from Ryeowook, Kyuhyun makes it so Yesung has to help the new transfer student who just happens to be the nice looking Chinese Hangeng.
Chapter 20
I woke up earlier then I wanted. It probably had to do with that dream again. I was starting to hate it. I seem to be getting better though. I didn’t even drop to my knees. I just stood there. The other person was still there though. Only this time he came up behind me and held me that way, still saying it will get better. Still for the life of me I couldn’t place his name and it was annoying me.
I rolled over on my back and just stared at the ceiling. I had no intention of leaving my room till the party. I was just going lay here and do nothing. There was a knock on my door. I considered ignoring it but I knew it was unlocked. Sooner or later they were going to try the knob.
I raised my voice to be heard thru the door. “If you are not Kibum or Hangeng” I paused for a second, “Or Kangin with a damn good reason, leave!”
The door opened and Hangeng poked his head in, “So, does that mean I can come in?”
I sat up and gestured him in, “Yea. I just woke up actually.”
Hangeng came and sat down on the bed across from me, “Yea, I figured you would sleep in. You don’t have to worry about Kangin bothering you, he’s not here.”
I asked “He’s not? And you figured I would sleep in why?”
Hangeng smirked “I was up early and in the kitchen when Kangin shuffled in. He told me about last night. Before he could say anything else, Sungmin came in, grabbed him, started babbling about getting stuff for the party and dragged him out. I don’t think Kangin knew what was happening.”
I started laughing just thinking about it. “I knew Sungmin would get Kangin out shopping again. I bet Leeteuk just mentioned how he needs stuff and Sungmin volunteered to go get it.”
Hangeng snorted “I believe you. Want to talk about last night?”
I knew he was going to bring it up. I was already prepared for it. I groaned and flopped back on the bed. “Not really, only because there isn’t much to talk about, Ryeowook came in to talk and I exploded at him about hiding his thing with Kyuhyun. Then I told him to leave.”
Hangeng nodded and then asked “Does he know why you are upset?”
I raised my head and looked at him, “Why? I believe I yelled at him about being his best friend and trust.”
Hangeng shook his head “No, not that. I’m talking about you liking him.”
I scoffed and let my head fall back down “No point, honestly. He is happy with Kyuhyun and I really don’t care anymore. Me telling him that would only upset him, and then I have to deal with him feeling guilty. I know him. I know he will do that.”
Hangeng just nodded “So what are you going to do today?”
I laughed “I have every intention of staying in this room and not leaving till the party starts.”
Hangeng stood up. “I guess if you want that I’ll leave you alone then.”
I shot up and grabbed his arm before he could move much. “I didn’t say I wanted to be alone, just that I didn’t want to leave. You can stay a bit and keep me company.”
Hangeng smiled and sat back down “Ok, sounds fun. I wasn’t really going to do anything anyway. What do you want to talk about then?”
I thought for a second and smirked “Well, we were talking about my sad sob story. What about yours? Have you talked with Heechul or are you avoiding him?”
Hangeng leaned back and snorted. When he leaned back his shirt rode up and I could see part of his stomach. I think I was staring, but I looked up when he started to talk. “No, I’m not avoiding him. I still talk to him, now I know all his antics are friendly teasing. It was never a broken heart; just maybe slightly bruised.”
I laughed “Lucky. Don’t let him get away with too much though. Refuse him every once in a while. He needs it.” I got up and walked to the turtle tank and looked in. I remembered what ended yesterday. “Damn it!”
Hangeng jumped and ran over “What happened? Is your turtle ok?” He honestly looked panicked.
I looked at him and said “I missed the turtle sale at the pet store.”
Hangeng just looked at me, “Turtle sale? You want another one?”
I gave him appalled face “Are you saying there is something wrong with turtles? YES, I want another one. I want to give him someone to talk to.”
Hangeng just looked at me, shook his head and walked back the bed, laughing. I sighed, ‘I was going to have to wait for the next sale now.’
We ended up just talking for a couple hours, waiting for the party time. He showed me some dance moves and I showed him why I wasn’t in the dance department. We were throwing a paper ball back and forth, when my watch went off letting me know I could go down now. I suggested we race to the common room. Hangeng just smirked and agreed.
5 minutes later it sounded like a herd of elephants running down the stairs. Hangeng beat me, only because he had grabbed me by the waist and turned me around and hauled ass.
I was catching my breath as the others filed in. I saw Ryeowook and Kyuhyun come in and I walked over to where I saw Kangin standing, Hangeng followed.
I watched as Leeteuk waited for everyone to get in and then he spoke up “Ok, listen up! The 3rd years already know this and I’m sure the 2nd years do too, but I’m going over it again for the 1st years. The alcohol is for the 3rd years only. I have punch and soda, so please don’t even try to drink the alcohol. We have the karaoke machine and the sound system from the music department. Please, please, please be careful with it. I cannot stress that enough.” Leeteuk went over to the music player and turned it on to dance music, “Ok, the after exam party has officially started. Have fun.” and he went to sit behind the food and drink table, probably to monitor the drinks.
I was eyeing the alcohol. I was debating if I wanted it or not when I noticed Heechul and Kangin skulking around the punch talking. Kangin and Heechul talking is never good, not for anyone. I watched as Kangin left Heechul and went to Leeteuk. They started talking and Heechul just watched.
I got up from I sat on the couch and started toward Heechul and I passed a whispering Ryeowook and Kyuhyun. I was determined to ignore them. That was cut short when I was grabbed by one of them. I turned to see Kyuhyun. Oh, I really didn’t want to talk to that one.
I tried to pull my arm away, but he held on. “Why did you yell at Ryeowook? He went to talk to you. After all this time you have been trying to talk to him, when he starts to talk to you, you yell at him.” He spat at me.
I narrowed my eyes at him. I can not believe he was standing there telling me this shit, after what he did. “I had every reason to yell at him and you are so not who I need in my face right now.” I hissed at him and pushed him off me.
I could see Ryeowook out of the corner of my eyes staring at us wide eyed. Kyuhyun blocked my view though, when he got in my face again and pushed me back. So, I did what any mature adult would do, I pushed him back.
I think punches were going to be next, but Leeteuk rushed over and pulled us apart. “What the hell is going on here!? This is fun time. Not beat each other up time. I’m pulling rank here, have fun on separate sides of the room and don’t talk to each other. I mean it. Fun time.” and he pushed Kyuhyun back to where Ryeowook was and let me go back to where I was heading.
I was glaring at them as I made my way to the punch. I looked at it to a smiling Heechul. He handed me a cup. I just stared at it. I was pretty sure he did something to it. “I’m not drinking anything you give me until you tell me what you did to it.”
Heechul pouted “Aw come on. Try it.” and pushed the cup at me.
I just looked at it. “Tell me what you did or I’m telling Leeteuk about what I think you did to it.” I stated.
He huffed and pulled me away “Ok fine, you win. I spiked the punch.”
I laughed “HA. I knew it. Kangin helped didn’t he? I knew the two of you talking meant trouble.”
Heechul snorted “Yea. Kangin was going to go and distract Leeteuk enough so I could pour some in but what you did was better. Because of the stunt with Kyuhyun, I was able to pour the whole thing in and Kangin was able to sneak in the kitchen and pour the rest in the other punch bowls in the fridge.”
I just stared at him “Why go thru the trouble to spike the punch when you and Kangin can drink anyway?”
He snickered and pointed to the table. I watched as Leeteuk was handing out drinks to everyone and drinking one himself. “That’s why, I want to see him cut loose and relax. Same with Siwon, with him, I’m curious as to how he is. Don’t worry I told the only minor I actually like to drink only soda.”
Sure enough, I saw Henry refuse the punch and take a soda. I looked from the punch to Heechul. Knowing him, it was strong stuff. Well I already decided to get hammered anyway.
I walked over and grabbed a couple cups and chugged two down and was working on the third when I started hacking. Heechul was laughing when he pounded me on the back telling me to slow down. I ignored him and grabbed a couple more and sat down next to Hangeng on the couch. I noticed he had his own punch.
He quirked an eyebrow at my cups, I just said I was thirsty. An hour later I was fully feeling the effects. I just looked around in a haze at the other people. Apparently I wasn’t the only one feeling good. Kangin and Sungmin were at the Karaoke machine with Shindong. I have no idea what they were trying to sing.
I let my head roll back on the couch and look around from that view. I saw Leeteuk and Zhoumi arm wrestling at a table near by. For some reason I started laughing my ass of at that. They seemed evenly matched in weakness. Zhoumi sneezed and won.
I heard them turn the music up and people started to dance. I felt like dancing and I liked this song. At least I think, I like this song. Didn’t matter, I was going to dance to it. I got to the middle of the little group and started throwing my arms around in what I was hoping was a dance. My arms and brain didn’t seem to be connected right now. I found it funny though.
My laughing was what set me off balance and for the first time that night I was laying on the ground. I was mighty proud of myself. It was the first I was there all night.
Hangeng appeared in front of me and helped me to the couch. I don’t know if I said thank you or just laughed. He made me focus on him.
“Yesung, Yesung look at me.” Lucky guy didn’t sound drunk at all, “Have you had any of the alcohol?” he asked.
I thought for a minute, “I only had punch, speaking of which I’m thirsty. I’m going to go get more.”
I started to get up but he pushed me back down. “Stay. I’ll go get it. I’m afraid you might hurt yourself or someone else.” and he walked to the table.
I scoffed, ‘Me hurt myself, never.’ I looked around and I saw Ryeowook and Kyuhyun watching the guys dance. They were drinking canned sodas. I realized I wanted to talk to them.
I got up off the couch and made my way over. As I got close I saw Ryeowook giving me a wary look and Kyuhyun just glaring at me. “What do you want now?” Kyuhyun demanded and stood up.
I just stood there a minute. ‘What did I want? I’m pretty sure I wanted to yell or something at Kyuhyun or let Ryeowook know exactly why I was so hurt.’ I answered “I want to tell you that you are an evil prick.” I seemed to forget Ryeowook in favor for the evil prick in front of me.
Kyuhyun just stared “Did you just call me a prick? How do you even know what that is.”
I sort of swayed for a second, “Yes, I called you a prick and you are one. You knew damn well I liked Ryeowook. So every chance you got, you flaunted your close bond with him. When I realized you two were dating, I realized that you were flaunting that you could touch and I could only watch. Then you took all his time and I lost a best friend. So, yes you are an ass.”
Kyuhyun was gaping at me, but it was Ryeowook who spoke up “You liked me?”
I turned unsteadily to face him, “Yes I did. I don’t now, but I did. Kyuhyun knew it. Hell, everyone else knew it too. Only you didn’t and when you didn’t tell me about Kyuhyun and you and I had to walk in on, it was a deep blow.” I looked around as I talked. I couldn’t seem to focus. I saw Hangeng at the couch looking around, probably for me. I jerked around to face Kyuhyun and yelled, “HE TOLD ME, THAT YOU TOLD HIM, NOT TO TELL ME, ABOUT YOU TWO AND NOW I KNOW WHY! IT’S BECAUSE YOU HATE ME AND DIDN’T WANT HIM TALKING TO ME. WELL GUESS WHAT. I DON’T LIKE HIM ANYMORE!”
I jerked my arm again and started to fall back. What balance I normally had was lost as I fell back and crashed into the table, making a loud noise. I giggle to myself when I looked up, Kyuhyun had his arm out automatically to catch me when I fell, but it just looked like he pushed me.
Suddenly Hangeng was next to me pulling me up and helping me gain my balance. Ryeowook went to help him, but Hangeng snapped at them. “Both of you just back up. I’ve got him. I don’t think he needs your help anymore.” and before either could talk he started walking me to the stairs.
Going up the stairs was a trip I would like to never repeat. At one point near my room I stumbled and latched my other arm around his neck. So now it looked like I was hugging him, but I couldn’t seem to find my feet.
We made it to my room and he dropped me on the bed. I sort of just flopped back and laid there. I rolled my head and looked at him. He was catching his breath from carting me up here.
I was expecting him to say something, but when he spoke I still jumped, “Yesung, what was wrong with you? Why were you picking a fight and what did you say to get that response?”
I lay there looking at him, trying to remember what I just did. When I remembered I sat right up then put my head in my hands groaning. That sudden movement made me feel a little sick. I felt my bed move with Hangeng sitting next to me, “Yesung?”
I looked at him and for some reason I felt tears well up “I think he hates me now. I went over and told him that I thought Kyuhyun was a prick and that I had liked him. After that I can’t really remember, but it must be bad.” I just started crying. I have no idea why, I thought I had finished crying about Kyuhyun and Ryeowook.
I felt Hangeng pull me into a little hug so I was crying into his shirt. I might have been crying then, but when I finally heard what Hangeng was saying it dried those tears up fast. I could him murmuring; that everything was going to be all right and that I didn’t need Ryeowook if he didn’t trust me. In my wonderful drunken haze I was able to finally place a face to the voice in my dreams.
I jerked back and looked at his startled eyes from my sudden mood swing. I start laughing not believing that person I was trying to figure out has been here the whole time.
Hangeng slowly scooted back when I started laughing. He probably thought I was crazy. I looked at him things started coming to my mind. Things I didn’t remember until I reached that level of drunkenness that everything in your mind is open and nothing is holding you back.
I stopped laughing and started talking. “Hey Hangeng want to know another reason, I just literally remember, that I was so angry at you when we first met?”
Hangeng gave me confused eyes. “Um… sure?”
I smiled, it was probably a creepy smile but it was a smile non the less, “It was because when you walked into that classroom the first time I thought you were incredibly handsome and when I was able to actually see your eyes, I think my breath hitched. I was still in love with Ryeowook, had been for years, then all of a sudden a new student had me thinking random things I’m not used to. I think I was angry at you for making me feel things I wasn’t ready to feel at the time.”
I just looked at Hangeng with slightly dazed eyes, I was sober enough to know this courage and clarity was coming from the alcohol, but drunk enough to not care and surged on. Hangeng had a closed expression on his face. I couldn’t tell if he was freaked or curious.
I continued, “Then you had to go and start ignoring me. I could never understand why that bothered me. I think that even though I was angry at you for what you were making me feel, I still wanted you near me. Then you had to go and show me those damn glasses. I swear that morning I saw those I started falling more. I clearly remembered thinking oh my god, sexy.”
I slowly scooted closer, not much, but enough. He didn’t move, just continued to watch me, waiting for what I was going to say next. “I kept having a bad feeling in my chest every time you were with Heechul. That’s why I left early at your recital not because I needed to practice with Leeteuk.”
I scooted closer; I could feel our legs touching. Hangeng still didn’t move just looked at my face almost searching. “I realized that if it wasn’t for you, when I found out about Ryeowook, I would have fallen into a deep depression, but you didn’t let me. That’s when the dreams started.”
I leaned forward a little bit, not talking very loud. He spoke then, barely a whisper, “Dreams?”
I nodded and said, “Yes, in them I’m watching Kyuhyun take Ryeowook away from me. In the first dream, I dropped to my knees crying. In the second one, I just dropped to my knees. The third one, I didn’t even drop. After that every time someone would comfort me and tell me everything was going to be all right and that they were there for me. For the longest time I could never put a face to the voice. When you were letting my cry into your shoulder and you said those things, it was almost exactly like my dream. Everything suddenly made sense.”
I pulled back a little bit to look into his eyes. There was something there I didn’t recognize. I whispered “The one in my dreams telling me everything will all right, that was you. Even in my dreams you protected me.”
I leaned forward more. I could feel his breath from his parted lips, and the barest of touches. I moved forward to feel more of the lips. I closed my eyes to savor it, but as soon as I closed my eyes, that was the end of me. I passed out.
Chapter 21
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