the past few days have pretty much been the same thing. i feel like every day is repetitive which kind of sucks. i just want to get high school overwith. i mean i'm having fun and all, but i just need something new in my life ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to church for my grandma. it was one year yesterday that she died. rest in peace grammy, i miss you so much ( Read more... )

my uncle has anaplastic carcinoma, the type of thyroid cancer that i was dreading. it is the worst of the thyroid cancers, and survival rate is very low.

whyi don't get why this is happening, or who is watching over this family. i really don't ( Read more... )

you want to know the one thing i am sick and tired of above all? one simple statement.

"________ has cancer."
right as i was just about to go to work, my aunt laura calls. my dad picked up, and i thought it was gonna be about the brain and bone scans my aunt koo had gotten earlier this week. his tone of voice made me think something was wrong with ( Read more... )

(+) tomorrow is friday ( Read more... )

yesterday was such a busy day. after school, i had driver's ed until 6:30 (and john stone was a half hour late to class so we missed a half hour of lecture =]]). afterwards, i had an appointment with my new psychologist. i was really happy with him. he was a lot better than the one i went to before him. he knew my entire life story just from ( Read more... )

i wish i could explain how i feel.
but moreso, i wish i could stop feeling this way.
it's so horrible, i can't stop crying .. and it's been this way for hours.
and for what reason?
i don't know.

i'm absolutely miserable. i don't know what is wrong with me.

God please give me the strength to get through this. please.

i don't think i've ever felt this stressed in my life. i have to do all my stuff for college still, not like i'm getting into a good school or anything, i have no money whatsoever for christmas presents and i feel like my paychecks aren't gonna be too great. i will be working 329847238947 hours between now and january, and i feel like i won't have ( Read more... )

i hate when i get like this. i feel all pissed off and jealous about nothing for no reason. oh the joys of being a girl. <3.

so if unpacking endless amounts of christmas stuff at work didn't make me realize the fact that christmas is gonna be here soon - who knows what would make it hit me? well. it basically hit me today at work when my manager realized that we now get christmas music in the store. and i got very, very sad. to the point where i was tearing up and had to ( Read more... )