Yeah well...
Finch - Ender
Here I am beside myself again
I'm torn apart by words that you have said
All in all I know we're falling apart
Where did you run to so far away?
And here we are to sing you a song
And there you are asleep on the window pane
Just like always
You said you like to hear the rain sometimes
All I can do is tell you the truth
Oh my eyes will tell you the same
And here we are to sing you a song
And there you are asleep again
And here we are to sing you a song
And there you are asleep again
Grasp our hands together, we feel we are one result
I got my meds changed... I'm back on Celexa. I felt its effects for most of the day, but it must be wearing off now.
It keeps hitting me over and over that things are different... and will be, quite possibly, forever. I know friendships dont last forever... but I thought this one would. You're right, I am giving up -in a sense. I wish I could say more, but my feelings just prove to make me stupid everytime. So, what more is there to say... I'm along for the ride... but I'm not enjoying it at all.
I feel so sick. I have felt sick for well over a week and its not getting any better... maybe there is something seriously wrong with me. That would be pretty cool, huh?
I am really just a child... and I have set big goals for myself that I know I cant achieve. I guess its just a way to comfort myself. I think we all know that what I really want is something that will devistate most people around me... so I wont talk about that.
Why am I so fucking down? I feel like crying so hard... heh. Its funny how when you are sad... and you know you want to cry... you can say it and then it automatically happens.