Application-type thing.
Name: Sonia
When you realized your talent?: My parents told me that I sang before I walked or talked, and I always sang whenever I had the occasion. But I kind of lost touch with my singer-self during these past few years because of adolescence and related confidence-self-assurance issues. I'm starting to do it again though, and maybe I'll find the confidence I used to have as a little girl. Instead of singing I turned to writing, and I wrote a lot, short stories, fanfiction, bad diary-type poetry. I also play the guitar and my little sister is a fan, hahaha. I won't be posting any sound bytes yet cause I don't have a microphone. I'm still applying though because people tell me I write well.
Is your talent something you want as a career?: I always wanted and still want to be a professional musician (singer/composer/guitar player). I'm still in the process of discovering whether I'm still capable of finding that particular type of creativity in me. And who doesn't want to publish a book in their lifetime? I probably won't be able to make a living per se with my 'art', but I'll try as hard as I can to make things happen.
Anyone you look up to/inspires you?: I really admire Amanda Palmer, of Dresden Dolls fame (singer/pianist). She's an extremely creative and inspiring person, go read her online diary on dresdendolls.com. When I was a bit younger I was fascinated with Brian Molko because he seemed to represent a rather important aspect of what teenagers go through (sexual confusion and general teenage angst) and I still enjoy listening to Placebo. I generally find music very inspiring (right now I'm listening to Modest Mouse's latest and to a local dark-folk band called Domus)
Favorite band/singer: The ones listed above, but also many, many more. I have a very open taste in music and will listen to anything from Chopin through the Distillers to Bloc Party. I generally tend to prefer female singers with fierce voices, and I like my music to be a mix of anger and melancholy. I guess it's because I'm 17.
Favorite movies: Lately "Dude where's my car?" (come on, how could anyone NOT love this movie?), and I also enjoyed watching Requiem for a Dream, Being John Malkovich, and I saw Danny the Dof yesterday (and Velvet Goldmine for my boys-in-eyeliner-wearing-very-little-clothing fix)
Favorite TV shows: As If (British version, I heard ther's a US one too but I never watched it) and Dead Like Me which must be the best TV series I'd ever watched. I watch every single episode religiously, hahaha.
Favorite foods: Chocolate. 'Nuff said.
Favorite actor/actresses: Lately Jared Leto, hee. I don't really have a particular favorite.
Describe your personality: I can be anything from extremely grumpy and depressed to hyperactive like a monkey with ADD on some very bad crack. The key word here is mood swings. I can be very immature and teenage-ish and sometimes feel like I've lived a hundred years and know everything there is to know about, umm, basically everything. You know. I'm your typical teenager with artistic aspirations. I walk aroung carrying a notebook, for fuck's sake.
What do you look for in a person (in general)?: It's not really a thing in particular, if I 'click' with a person from the start we'll probably be friends. If not, chances are rather slim. I generally tend to like people who are a bit different, maybe not in obvious ways, and people who are capable of standing my mood swings and my saying stupid things all the time.
What do you do on your free time?: I play guitar and read books, and, when nobody's home, I scream along to Greenday records with the volume turned all the way up. You gotta pity my neighbors, I live in an apartment. Heee.
Where is your favorite place to be?: I don't really think I found it yet.
And, your opinion on this community?: I think it looks fun, I'm rather new to this community-type stuff, but it looks like a useful place to share your stuff with other people... at? (haha, the Bad Grammar Fairy strikes again...)
So now for the 'talent' - I'll post the last poem I wrote. I'm not entirely sure whether it's completely finished yet, because I thought the last time I copied it out into my notebook that it was the definitive version, and now that page is covered with corrections and editing squiggles of all sorts. Well. Here it is.
***
I am your rib, broken in half
Half-heart, half-brain, frayed
like an exhausted sweater sleeve.
Worn-out and faded, a forgotten Eve.
I should be replaced -
a pretty design
that flatters the heart and
numbs the mind never
asks awkward questions.
This hemisphere closed its eye
but mine stay open
staring at the inside of
its pinpricked lid, looking
for the day I'll be on my own
alone, a solitary foot next
and amputated leg.
The weight shifts on the bed.
Whiskey-breath snores next to me
like a great, purring cat.
Sleep finds its way to me,
finally.
***
Now for the pictures, I guess. These were all taken with my crap cell phone, but yeah.
this is a part of my face looking demented -
and this is me doing a very bad Monica Bellucci imitation while trying very hard not to crack up -
And this is my best friend -
wow, that was long.