I woke up this morning with a really nasty stomach ache. This is the first time I have awoke to feel THIS awful ( Read more... )

I am kept awake tonight by the lingering fear that I have that I will fuck up this opportunity just like I have fucked up the last few. Granted, Amazon has more flexibility than LSS did, and even Reggie before that, but I am still afraid I will screw this up ( Read more... )

I got a call back from Amazon today about working for them in Seller Support. I will be paying close attention in class (yes, that means I'll be leaving my crackberry with Kris for about 4 weeks), and doing the best I can to make sure this is the last job I have to find for a while. For fuck's sake, I was unemployed for 4 weeks and it has been ( Read more... )

I am terribly worried about not being able to find a job. The thought makes me seethe that I have to be in this state of limbo. I have to wait to hear what someone thinks about me, and I really would rather have instant gratification ( Read more... )

GOD I hate that battery operated drill that Dylan has.

I am SOOOO hiding it in the bottom of his toybox at nap time.

It feels good to be writing again. I was given some positive feedback about my last entry, and it leads me to believe that maybe my gift for words might be something worth harnessing, instead of pretending it doesn't exist ( Read more... )

My temper has flared today more than a few times. I can think of at least 4 instances that I got upset and felt I had lost my temper. I am still very capable of functioning when this happens, but it is not the best idea. This is basically what happened the day I lost my temper at work. I chose to continue working because a break was too much to ask ( Read more... )

I have made it very clear that I feel writing about life as it is happening is pointless. However I am busy being inspired by my newish friend Katie, also wanting to be a good person and work on my issues are top priorities. I also feel that I am more articulate when I slow down long enough to think about what I am going to say ( Read more... )

Let it not be said that music can not only have the ability to leave us feeling like we are laying in a pool of our own sorrow ( Read more... )

I stood up for myself to Tiffany today. Yesterday she had given me a guilt trip when she walked out, saying that I didn't do anything yesterday. I didn't over-react, but told her that we needed to talk about this in the open. She said alright, but later. So I waited until the kids were asleep, and she was done mopping and I confronted her in ( Read more... )