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Shanzi: Well. At least Braeden got to......ahem......comfort Saint?
Tam: aaah
Shanzi: hehehe
Jalireth: ~walks in~ Is that so? ~raises an eyebrow~
Shanzi: ~snerks~ What, Saint and Braeden? Of course. Caoilinn has informed me that Braeden appears for three things, only two of which I'm allowed to say. War, and sex.
Jalireth: So much for mourning or missing me at all. ~snorts and sits down, taking off his hat and looking at it funny~
Shanzi: Sadly enough, you do realize that I'm not freaked out by this, yes?
Jalireth: I don't know *what* you're talking about. ~teleports the hat away and conjures a brush, taking out his braid~
Shanzi: So, ~sits back~ Are you sharing that delicious body with your son, or am I missing something?
Jalireth: Sharing. Hm. Now *that* would be interesting...but no. He has no interest in sharing. ~rolls his eyes~ Honestly, I thought he was made of sturdier stuff.
Shanzi: Yeah, well, that's your own fault on the sturdy factor. ~snerks~ So I *am* missing something, or he's not happy about this.
Jalireth: ~grins and keeps brushing his hair~ Would you be happy about it?
Shanzi: I'd... -_- If you drive him into suicide by screwing him up I'm going to send.... I don't know, lots of nasties after you.
Jalireth: I've had nasties sent after me before. ~just looks bored~
Shanzi: I'd say I'd love to watch a bunch of deities kick your ass, but that would be terribly mean of me. <3
Jalireth: I didn't see them stopping me when it happened. In fact, I'm sure at least one's out there really looking forward to seeing me... ~smirk~
Shanzi: That was you. Now that Jalireth's heavily involved, well... what can I say? He's popular.
Jalireth: He's still alive...just curled up in a corner like a lost child. Of course, that might not last long if I had to deal with, say, extensive threats instead of trying to keep him here with us... ~smirk~
Shanzi: ~sighs~ Bivran...
Jalireth: Hmm?
Shanzi: I thought you were looking *forward* to death. What changed?
Jalireth: I was looking forward to *this*. I was tired of that cursed body.
Shanzi: ... As much as I find myself hating you a million times more than I did right now, I have to say it. You're good.
Jalireth: I'd take a bow, but I'm comfortable.
Shanzi: Mmf, well, it's the thought that counts.
Jalireth: Know that inside, I'm thinking about bowing for that, a lot. My masterpiece. <3
Shanzi: You must be so proud. ~rolls her eyes~
Jalireth: Shouldn't I be?
Shanzi: Think about who you're asking.
Jalireth: You like him that much?
Shanzi: I like him that much because he's proven to me that he should be liked that much.
Jalireth: ~pout~ Oh, but I thought everyone was going to miss me *so* much...
Shanzi: Oh, I'm sure. ~smirks~ You're an egotistical bastard, but you aren't delusional and we both know it.
Jalireth: Fei even *cried* for me. I can't say no to an angel's tears...
Shanzi: Yes, well, Saint is making Chrysty cry because of you. You should be oh so delighted at all of the pain you've caused. Even Haesia... but she wasn't crying for you.
Jalireth: ~waves a hand negligently~ Yes, well, it's still early. He may snap out of it.
Shanzi: Mm, maybe.
Jalireth: I seem to remember someone saying that Jalireth has a lot to live for...
Shanzi: He does. Quite a bit.
Jalireth: Then I'm sure he'll snap out of it. It's not like I'm holding him prisoner or anything... ~smug grin~
Shanzi: ... ~sighs~ I really hate you, Bivran.
Jalireth: ~sweet smile~ Sweeter words I have never heard. <3
Shanzi: ~headdesk~
Jalireth: Do you think I expected anyone to *like* me for this?
Shanzi: No, you have a few more braincells than that.... ~sighs~ What's the *point*?
Jalireth: ~softly~ I want to *live*. ~gets a distant look in his eyes~ It felt like tens of thousands of years, trapped in that hell, and I just want what should have been mine....
Shanzi: ~sighs~ So you're trapping your son in a hell of his own? It wasn't his fault...
Jalireth: I am doing no such thing.
Shanzi: ~sits back, raises an eyebrow~
Jalireth: He is not trapped.
Shanzi: Alright. Can you explain for the Poor Editor? Before my head explodes.
Jalireth: Come here...sit with me while I explain. I don't want him trapped, despite what it seems like.
Shanzi: ~sighs, nods, gets up and sits next to him~ Go on, then.
Jalireth: Right now it's like there's this cold lump resting next to my soul...and every time I try he curls up tighter around himself and gets colder. I don't want this...
Shanzi: ~nods~ I can imagine.... on both counts...
Jalireth: As soon as he realized what was going on, that I'm here, he did this. I hoped...I don't know. I knew his life would be rough, but I honestly hoped it would make him stronger than me. I didn't want to break him...
Shanzi: ~sighs~ Then don't push it so much that he does break... and either he'll come out of it himself, or someone, or many someones, will coax him out...
Bivran: ~nods~ I'm leaving him alone. I'm hardly stupid, as you pointed out.
Shanzi: ~nods~ Give it a little bit... not too long, but... well, if he doesn't improve, then find someone, yes?
Bivran: I'm going to...the sooner the better. If he stays like this...he might decide no one loves him at all, and he'll stay like this forever...
Shanzi: I had thought so... ~nods and sighs~ Well, they won't let him. Believe me.
Shanzi: ~watches a flicker at the window and grumbles to herself~
Bivran: Yeah... ~closes his eyes~ I wish I could help him myself, really.
Shanzi: ~sighs... hugs him~ You not staying silent about it is helping, really it is.
Bivran: ~hugs~ I'm not the monster I've led everyone to think I am...I used to be...but this...scares me. I can feel my son dying next to me and can't help...
Shanzi: ((You know, the scary thing is, Lukas at one window, Zabana just watching from another because um... she does that. >> Have I mentioned I have nosy frikkin muses?))
Shanzi: ~hugs tightly~ He won't die.
Bivran: ~nods a little~
Shanzi: ~sighs and strokes his hair~
Bivran: ~clings~ Just don't let him die...
Shanzi: Shh, shh... ~holds him~ I won't.
Bivran: This is easier...when I can pretend to be cold and selfish like everyone thinks I am. But he's just cold right there...and he's not just some creation...he's my son....
Shanzi: ~sighs and looks at him~ You have changed... it's good. ~nuzzles and hugs~ I'm just sorry it took all of this for it to happen...
Bivran: ~murmurs~ Last night...Jalireth was just laying there and feeling strange...he didn't realize what was wrong yet...and he was holding his wife and placed his hand over her belly and...he just felt the small life force there. Their baby. And I missed that. I could have had that, but I didn't. I can't take that from him...I tried to tell him then, how sorry I was...and that's when he pulled away...and I thought, maybe after some sleep...but he's still like this....
Shanzi: And does she know...? ~sighs and snuggles him closely~
Bivran: ~shakes his head~ I don't think so...she was falling asleep as well.
Shanzi: ~ponders and sighs~ Well... I half want to say maybe you should let her know... but I'm not sure about the stress factor on that... ~frowns, squeezes his hand~
Bivran: I'll ask Chrysty...she'll know who I should turn to.
Shanzi: ~nods~ And if you need anyone from my wardrobe, I'll make sure they're complacent and realize how serious it is.
Bivran: Thank you.
Shanzi: ~hugs tightly~ You're welcome, hon.
Bivran: ~closes his eyes and hugs~
Shanzi: ~just holds him close~
Bivran: ~is fighting back tears~ What if I have to really die, so that he'll live? I don't want to die...
Shanzi: ~sighs quietly and pulls him onto her lap~ I'm trying not to think about that, hon... ~runs a hand through his hair and looks at him~ I can't promise that you won't... ~softly~ But if it seems like you have to, but there's a way around it... well, I'll push for the alternative.
Bivran: Thank you...
Shanzi: ~hugs tightly again~
Bivran: ~just clings~
Shanzi: I'm so sorry.... ~clings back~
Bivran: ~shakes his head~ I honestly though, when the spell was cast, that I wouldn't care if he lived or died at this point...don't be sorry, I am the monster everyone thinks I am...
Shanzi: No, you aren't. You regret it now.
Bivran: I guess...everyone has to grow up sometime...
Shanzi: At least you did. ~rubs his back~
Bivran: And it took death to do it. Perhaps I am as hopeless as my mother always said. ~half-grin~
Shanzi: ~sticks her tongue out~ Some people don't even grow up then. I think you're doing pretty well.
Bivran: ~blink~ Just how many dead people do you know?
Shanzi: Well, my Angel of Death isn't included, because he's grown up immensely, but... there are a few running around here.
Bivran: Hm. Yes. I noticed the community.
Tam: And trust me, Kren hasn't grown up a bit. XP
Shanzi: ~giggles~
Shanzi: Grandfather will never grow up.
Tam: hehehe
Bivran: ~falls silent, thoughtful~
Shanzi: ~nuzzles his cheek~
Bivran: Excuse me...there's something I think I must do... ~hugs~
Shanzi: ~hugs back and nods~
Bivran: I'll see you later. ~stands up and walks out of the room~