...relative to everything. All of my life I've searched for happiness. I tried to find it with religion, but all I managed to find was a way to hollow out my soul. I had to dump everything that I was and fill myself with what the church felt I should be. So I moved on. I've tried to find happiness in my career. But that was an easy one. The ( Read more... )

Anti-Bush/Conservative bumper stickers found on www.bettybowers.com ( Read more... )

A month or so ago, I did an entry about time periods in my life...and how I felt that the current phase in my life was about to end. I was wondering what event would signify the end of that phase and the beginning of the new phase. I think I have it figured out now. I think it may be finally having the strength to walk away...

Well, it's finally all over (at least I think). I mailed Kyle his things today. I even made sure to get delivery confirmation and insurance in case he said "I didn't get it" or "It was damaged" which wouldn't really surprise me considering how much of an asshole he is being. It's so amazing to think that just a week ago, he was saying how much ( Read more... )

Kyle ( Read more... )

Started listening to "Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough" and just started bawling. I'm sitting here looking at the long-stem red roses that Kyle got me for my birthday, and I just can't bring myself to throw them out...even though they're dead and moldy. Then I look over at the picture I have of him beside my bed, and I can't bring myself to put ( Read more... )

I just had to do the hardest thing I've ever had to do...and it hurts so bad. I had to walk away from the one I love. At least in the past, they've walked away from me. I had no choice in the matter. But in a way, I had no choice in this either. He left me no choice. He needs help bad, but I don't think he realizes it. Everyone else around ( Read more... )

Well, a lot has changed lately. Things are going wonderfully with Kyle. I'm no longer insecure or paranoid about the relationship. I know that he loves me, and I'm sure that this was meant to be. I finally feel like I'm being rewarded for my faith...for my perserverance and determination to find exactly what I wanted in life. We're already ( Read more... )

Found on a cup of Starbucks as I headed out to see my baby today ( Read more... )

Wow. Ok, so where do I begin ( Read more... )