The Joy of Pregnancy
Oh great. Now I'm not safe anywhere. I was just woken up from a peaceful sleep at 5am so that I could throw up NOTHING but stomach acid. Now I can't even sleep to get away from it. This is driving me insane.
I've come to accept that I will more than likely throw up the first thing I eat, even if it's nothing, which is painful, so I've taken to eating things I don't mind throwing up in the morning, digestive cookies, water, juice, Boost. Yes, I will even throw up Boost in the morning. That's expensive, so now I wait until after I've done my first puke to take the Boost.
Whether or not I'll throw up what I eat next seems to depend on how much water/liquid is involved. Too heavy on the water side = definitely. If I take my vitamins/drugs on top of it = probably. If I fall asleep on it? I've been able to keep it down. So I've gotten into the habit of immediate post-food napping, just so I don't lose my drugs, because my doctor said that taking them with a cracker before bed was insufficient. Boost usually settles okay, and feels really nice and soothing on a sore acid throat, but if I drink any water on it, it'll come right back up.
This is just so fucked up. Waking up induces vomiting. Using the toilet induces vomiting. Eating induces vomiting. Not eating induces vomiting. Drinking water induces vomiting. Getting dressed induces vomiting. Sitting at the computer induces vomiting. Lying on the couch in front of the TV induces vomiting. Sitting outside induces vomiting. Walking up and down stairs induces vomiting. Standing up induces vomiting. Coming in from outside induces vomiting. Being too warm induces vomiting. Being too cold induces vomiting.
There were two things I could do to stop it: walking outside, which is fine, but the moment I come in, BAM, and I can't stay outside forever, and sleeping. And now I can't count on sleep, or I wouldn't be awake right now. Fresh air does seem to help, but that often results in being cold, which doesn't.
To make matters worse, vomiting makes me lose bladder control. This means I can't throw up in the toilet. ...really? Yeah. It blows my mind that I would feel way better about this if I could just vomit into toilets, but I don't own enough pants to replace them twice a day. I avoid wearing pants. Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is to clean up a puddle of your own urine on the floor at 29 because your stomach decided to turn itself inside out while you were getting dressed?
Half the time after I throw up, I just crawl into bed and cry now. I'm afraid to go anywhere and do anything. I'm afraid to wear clothes. sdflkjsdf
You know what I miss most? Water. I'm used to drinking as much water as I want all day long. Now it's like a surefire way to get me to throw up. I'm fucking afraid of water. WHAT THE FUCK?! I don't know how much longer I can take this.
More doctor on Monday.
I've come to accept that I will more than likely throw up the first thing I eat, even if it's nothing, which is painful, so I've taken to eating things I don't mind throwing up in the morning, digestive cookies, water, juice, Boost. Yes, I will even throw up Boost in the morning. That's expensive, so now I wait until after I've done my first puke to take the Boost.
Whether or not I'll throw up what I eat next seems to depend on how much water/liquid is involved. Too heavy on the water side = definitely. If I take my vitamins/drugs on top of it = probably. If I fall asleep on it? I've been able to keep it down. So I've gotten into the habit of immediate post-food napping, just so I don't lose my drugs, because my doctor said that taking them with a cracker before bed was insufficient. Boost usually settles okay, and feels really nice and soothing on a sore acid throat, but if I drink any water on it, it'll come right back up.
This is just so fucked up. Waking up induces vomiting. Using the toilet induces vomiting. Eating induces vomiting. Not eating induces vomiting. Drinking water induces vomiting. Getting dressed induces vomiting. Sitting at the computer induces vomiting. Lying on the couch in front of the TV induces vomiting. Sitting outside induces vomiting. Walking up and down stairs induces vomiting. Standing up induces vomiting. Coming in from outside induces vomiting. Being too warm induces vomiting. Being too cold induces vomiting.
There were two things I could do to stop it: walking outside, which is fine, but the moment I come in, BAM, and I can't stay outside forever, and sleeping. And now I can't count on sleep, or I wouldn't be awake right now. Fresh air does seem to help, but that often results in being cold, which doesn't.
To make matters worse, vomiting makes me lose bladder control. This means I can't throw up in the toilet. ...really? Yeah. It blows my mind that I would feel way better about this if I could just vomit into toilets, but I don't own enough pants to replace them twice a day. I avoid wearing pants. Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is to clean up a puddle of your own urine on the floor at 29 because your stomach decided to turn itself inside out while you were getting dressed?
Half the time after I throw up, I just crawl into bed and cry now. I'm afraid to go anywhere and do anything. I'm afraid to wear clothes. sdflkjsdf
You know what I miss most? Water. I'm used to drinking as much water as I want all day long. Now it's like a surefire way to get me to throw up. I'm fucking afraid of water. WHAT THE FUCK?! I don't know how much longer I can take this.
More doctor on Monday.