what are some things that make life worth living? I'm trying to find my happy thought, so I'm not so depressed. If I can't find a happy thought I might have to take happy pills to fix my brain.

Sometimes I feel it would be better if I just went away. Ed doesn't think I love him anymore, what if that's true. I've love him more than anyone I've been with, ever. But I treat him so badly. I don't mean to. Maybe I'm just trying to push him away. I never had a dad who loved me so why should he? This would be so much easier if I wasn't pregnant ( Read more... )

Well I'm done with my part of the medicaid thing. I just need to wait and see if I get approved. Ed's coming up this weekend. We might go to the movies and get ice cream. Or we might just get ice cream. Either way I win ( Read more... )

well things aren't too bad. We're moving to what seems a nice house. Less stress there. Fort Lauderdale, I don't know. I hear it's a nicer place than here. And I get to keep my cat. My step-brother David is getting the snake and I might send Grace back up to Tara, so she'll be in a good home too. The kittens will be easy to get rid of and Isabelle ( Read more... )

It looks like I'm staying in this place for one more month. Then we're moving down to Fort Lauderdale where Ed is. I think we're going to move into a house with the four of us plus Ed's brother Jared. Which is someone I don't like living with. But I'm going to have to deal. The way it sounds this place is really nice. It's got three bedrooms and ( Read more... )

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So we are going to look at a place today as soon as everyone is dressed. And no Ed has been dressed for a few hours now. I would also like to note that I have Oro in my shirt. She's so warm she's not moving. She's now so bad, but I think we're going to give her to my step brother. Just in case how do you go about shipping a snake to another state?

Well I'm back in good old Florida. Fun times. But at least now I can be bored down here and play with my kitties before we have to get rid of them. I have to make a prenatal apmt. soon. I'm almost 12 weeks. Three months! I'm almost done with the first trimester already. Well just wanted everyone to know that I'm back and that I get here safely.

So there is a better chance that we're staying in Florida. Ed hasn't been sent out on jobs lately. And I might go back when I was suppose to. I need to get a handle on things down there. Plus I'm getting really bored up here, it's too cold, and I'm still sick. I need the warm weather again. I still need to figure out about going to the doctor. I ( Read more... )

Well I'm still sick. That sucks. My kitties are getting big and I can't see them. Only pictures. :( I miss my Eddie. I think I'm going to go to the doctor's sometime this week. And hoprfuly I get to hold a baby sometime too!