(1) zach lundin refused my offer to be his girlfriend. he was embarassed to be seen with me in public. i am officially scarred. :o)

(2) my fortune cookie says, "You will accept a new challenge, the outcome will prove rewarding." what does that say about me or my future if my fortune cookie uses incorrect grammar?

okay, i should preface by saying that life is ridiculously wonderful and every day seems better than the last and i can't remember being this happy in months.

after that, i am so in need of a vacation. i'm really, really tired.

but there are worse things than to be exhausted from happiness.

there are some afternoons that are just so wonderful that i dont know how to explain them.
my hair is shorter, my tolo outfit looks fabulous, i might get a lead in the musical (because sara said it would be okay to miss a lot of choir), and i have a wonderfully large number of friends who miss me.
life is sweet sometimes.

two tolo dresses, two late nights, half an application and 40 pages about a nazi war criminal later, i think i am ready to start the week ( Read more... )

my mom lit a yizkor candle yesterday, and it's still burning on the kitchen counter. it's a memorial candle for her father who died before i turned one.

the last time i remember seeing a yizkor candle, i was in a barracks in auschwitz.

time flies.

AH the telephone is a wonderful invention ( Read more... )

basically, elizabethtown is the best movie i have seen all year ( Read more... )

essay #2 is written!
(i.e. the new essay, having trashed essay #1)

subject: my lay-over in NYC
highlights include: jokes about NY pizza, bagels, and dirty water dogs

man i'm a funny duckling.
i can't believe my NY food cravings and afternoon in a starbucks are going to get me into college.

i wrote my college essay this weekend.

it's about sobibor and choir.
(jenny was there--she knows exactly what i'm describing.)

i've editted it four times now.

if i dont get into college because of my essay, i swear to god i'm qutting show business.

one of the more meaningful fasts of my life.

i feel like i've achieved a sense of mental clarity. and reality. and acceptance.

but wow, eating was so good. if you've never fasted, words cant explain what breaking a fast is like. you dont think you're hungry, but then you feel like the life is being pumped back into you. its incredible. even water ( Read more... )