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tankmp4

Been awhile...Part 2

Jul 15, 2005 03:10

Yeah it's been a long time since I wrote in here and as I'm noticing from the other posters that I know Just getting on and blabbing away about events of the day and strange random thoughts(hey these were expressed as strange random thoughts by the people that posted them so I'm not calling them strange) is acceptable and since I can't sleep yet ( Read more... )

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magni13 July 15 2005, 19:55:12 UTC

What you have written here is valid. Write what you feel because this "Live Journal" is first and foremost for you. It is not about who reads it or what they may think. That shouldn't come into play unless that is what you truly want to do. I really have no response to the other things you said here because although on some days my outlook is just as grim as yours, but then I realize that things aren't always as they seem. This is your life Manny. If you don't like the way it is going, change it. You're a strong enough person to make and accept changes. Now you just need to do it. You have a support system that will back you up just as you have supported them in the changes they have made in their lives. We're always here to make things better. You just need to be willing to let them get better. Hope things begin to look up. ~C

In response tankmp4 July 19 2005, 07:06:59 UTC

The thing about it is it is what it is. You can work so hard "work through the down times" seek an answer and find no one and nothing has it you can only mask what is there or convince oneself that what you seek is just or what you seek it for will be right and make things whole but that too is nothing not unless you can place meaning to it. Take that meaning away and you really do destroy that person it is possible to do it to anyone. Some recover and hide it better damaged goods others become shells and then there are those that collapse. Before I was but a shell now ... who knows and when possible I'll take the exit but this support is nice it just isn't convincing in its argument. I've waited for better but somehow those days seem to have been in the past and it wasn't nearly a high enough peak a measly rolling hill. Once I clung to "Can't rain all the time" and "the sun will come out tomorrow, tomorrow will be a better day" now they are but empty to me. Until that sun comes and removes the rain I don't know what to do cause I've ( ... )