Greetings, 2010 <)
I've fallen ill during the last few days of 2009, and so I'm thankful that I've recovered sufficiently in time to greet the new year *^___^* (no thanks to some bleedin' strange virus I'd caught during the Times Square outing *sigh*)
Since 2009 has been a particularly unmemorable year filled with pain and tears, I just want 2010 to be a peaceful year, this coming straight from the
heart.
January 2009
Under "house arrest" at Aunt's place after that Christmas Day appendicitis =n=;;;
The coldest month ever experienced when living in the UK!
February 2009
Another cold month spent chasing shadows, literally (I blame this on Ben!)
And the time I got stuck in the crossroads of life, trying to make the decision on whether to stay on or return to fight for my dreams - an action that has its consequences later on, and sometimes had me half-regretting (especially on bad days).
March 2009
The dying month - a month of tears, sleepless nights, and pure torture - due to a bleedin' university project.
I'm amazed I actually survived the onslaught.
April 2009
Another blasted month spent on reminiscing my pathetic loveless life. I'm the romantic fool, yes, and it ain't fun playing Cupid trying to solve everyone else's love problems.
But it can't be blamed when April is after all, Spring, and people always replace "Spring is in the air" with "Love is in the air".
May 2009
Another dying month - one of the worst in that year, what with uber-high-pressure to finish everything and facing shitty bookbinders who takes the opportunity to overcharge, even though it's their mistake in the first place.
June 2009
When summer arrived, things have gotten much better - the London Southbank photoshoot with dear Anya, Elmira and Erika is the BEST photoshoot I've ever gotten involved in (my own, too!)
Also the month of the Degree Show where my works got displayed - and having to see people actually appreciate all that I've done. I'm touched at one point, really.
And it's the month I get to know Alexander Rybak, the wonderful Norwegian fiddler boy-o *^___^*
July 2009
Height of summer, babe! It's half-spent on readying the London exhibition, and it's the first time I officially directed it with my fellow Russian mates Aleks and Katya - and I'm feel so proud seeing our own design become reality. It's awesome and it's a great job done by us all, including Ben :D
And the other half was spent...saying my hardest goodbye, ever.
To my dearest London. London, my playground, my sanctuary, my second home. No, it's my home - it's a home where I get my happiest memories, and I don't see shouting/bad memories as I used to get back at the other side of the world.
Coz when I return to Malaysia for good, I seriously dunno when I can get back, again.
...and till this day, I still feel 'homesick' for London. *sigh*
August 2009
I came back to Malaysia to find everything has changed.
Including my own perceptions of my supposed birth country and its people.
Prolly this is what they call, culture shock.
This is the month I entered TOA once more after all these years - to see Mr.Leo and get his permission to take up the Illustration major.
...and with much success XD
September 2009
The month where Hogzilla is officially married.
The month I started class - and made a few new friends :D
October 2009
It supposed to be my favorite month being Halloween.
But the blackest day in my life occurred in this month too - and I became a totally different person ever since that incident.
Because ever since that, I live to outlive that asshole, so that I can watch him burn. Yes, I still remembered the bitter vows I made, and yes, the memories STILL hurts, till this day.
...I can never forgive him, and I probably never will.
October, my favorite month, became the most hated month.
November 2009
It's back to beloved London! And seeing my best mates like Erika and Katya livened my life again, and took away those black clouds that's been haunting me since October. I feel more alive - and glad to have lived.
It was the middle of autumn, but there were also the first signs of winter.
And rainy Germany dampened the mood slightly, but it didn't put out the fire I've been fanning for - the upcoming Comics Fiesta!
December 2009
CF CF CF CF CF~
It's the only words chanted in my mind the whole time right until the day itself XD;
The preparations from the logo design to the booth design and the test-dress sessions - I can feel the fire!
...but whence CF came, probably due to too much hype / expecting too much, it ain't what it used to feel like 2 years ago *sigh* But I still enjoyed myself - partaking in a few photoshoot sessions (that in the end excluded me out *sigh*), and having fun running around as Zails Abigails, the exiled magician from abroad :)
~~~~~
Having written all this out, I guess 2009 ain't my year.
So I really really really wish 2010 had better be a better year.
'Coz it's the year I'm officially starting my Illustration major - and I'll be learning from the few great sifus like the legendary KS. Please bear with this student of yours, I'll try my best to improve my figure drawings skills and get better with every round of assignments!
Since I've got 2 more years in TOA, I'll definitely relish the time - to fulfill my function again, since it's the only role I can play to the fullest, being me @ the One-Winged Angel @ The Resident Trickster God, is what they used to know me by back then, and until today >DDDD
Aaaaand I can't wait to roll the first dice...
...and yes, my 2010 resolutions?
1. Play more mind games >DDD
2. Survive this dysfunctional family - I don't give 2 hoots to whatever the old man says anymore.
3. Improve my figure drawing skills XD; And pick up a few more new skills (esp. using the tablet!)
4. Finish reading all the books I've bought XD;;; (too many of 'em lying around my room...)
5. Enough splurging on EGA clothes/merchandise (unless said item(s) is REALLY EPIC-AWESOME!) ^w^;;;
6. When I see limited edition figurines/things that money cannot buy in the end, BUY THEM NOW when they are still around!~~ (made the mistake of not buying Vergil, and until today I deeply regretted it >___< Waaaah...)
7. Finish my doujin [Fairytale] for this year's CF! (and hopefully it'll turn out great with my newly acquired skills by then!)
8. Draw MOAR characters XD; Time to flesh them out, and also time to bring back Mysso into the fold!
9. Give my alter ego more freedom <3 (though I can't guarantee what she'll do when she unexpectedly takes control!~)
and lastly,
10. Always stay true/same to my current self, and never forget how far I've come ^-^
and also stay true to all the people I loved - including my beloved LDK <3
That's all for this entry, and until the next update (hopefully with the CF entry, I've been going 'round trying to grab as many shots as I can of myself),
-L
Since 2009 has been a particularly unmemorable year filled with pain and tears, I just want 2010 to be a peaceful year, this coming straight from the
heart.
January 2009
Under "house arrest" at Aunt's place after that Christmas Day appendicitis =n=;;;
The coldest month ever experienced when living in the UK!
February 2009
Another cold month spent chasing shadows, literally (I blame this on Ben!)
And the time I got stuck in the crossroads of life, trying to make the decision on whether to stay on or return to fight for my dreams - an action that has its consequences later on, and sometimes had me half-regretting (especially on bad days).
March 2009
The dying month - a month of tears, sleepless nights, and pure torture - due to a bleedin' university project.
I'm amazed I actually survived the onslaught.
April 2009
Another blasted month spent on reminiscing my pathetic loveless life. I'm the romantic fool, yes, and it ain't fun playing Cupid trying to solve everyone else's love problems.
But it can't be blamed when April is after all, Spring, and people always replace "Spring is in the air" with "Love is in the air".
May 2009
Another dying month - one of the worst in that year, what with uber-high-pressure to finish everything and facing shitty bookbinders who takes the opportunity to overcharge, even though it's their mistake in the first place.
June 2009
When summer arrived, things have gotten much better - the London Southbank photoshoot with dear Anya, Elmira and Erika is the BEST photoshoot I've ever gotten involved in (my own, too!)
Also the month of the Degree Show where my works got displayed - and having to see people actually appreciate all that I've done. I'm touched at one point, really.
And it's the month I get to know Alexander Rybak, the wonderful Norwegian fiddler boy-o *^___^*
July 2009
Height of summer, babe! It's half-spent on readying the London exhibition, and it's the first time I officially directed it with my fellow Russian mates Aleks and Katya - and I'm feel so proud seeing our own design become reality. It's awesome and it's a great job done by us all, including Ben :D
And the other half was spent...saying my hardest goodbye, ever.
To my dearest London. London, my playground, my sanctuary, my second home. No, it's my home - it's a home where I get my happiest memories, and I don't see shouting/bad memories as I used to get back at the other side of the world.
Coz when I return to Malaysia for good, I seriously dunno when I can get back, again.
...and till this day, I still feel 'homesick' for London. *sigh*
August 2009
I came back to Malaysia to find everything has changed.
Including my own perceptions of my supposed birth country and its people.
Prolly this is what they call, culture shock.
This is the month I entered TOA once more after all these years - to see Mr.Leo and get his permission to take up the Illustration major.
...and with much success XD
September 2009
The month where Hogzilla is officially married.
The month I started class - and made a few new friends :D
October 2009
It supposed to be my favorite month being Halloween.
But the blackest day in my life occurred in this month too - and I became a totally different person ever since that incident.
Because ever since that, I live to outlive that asshole, so that I can watch him burn. Yes, I still remembered the bitter vows I made, and yes, the memories STILL hurts, till this day.
...I can never forgive him, and I probably never will.
October, my favorite month, became the most hated month.
November 2009
It's back to beloved London! And seeing my best mates like Erika and Katya livened my life again, and took away those black clouds that's been haunting me since October. I feel more alive - and glad to have lived.
It was the middle of autumn, but there were also the first signs of winter.
And rainy Germany dampened the mood slightly, but it didn't put out the fire I've been fanning for - the upcoming Comics Fiesta!
December 2009
CF CF CF CF CF~
It's the only words chanted in my mind the whole time right until the day itself XD;
The preparations from the logo design to the booth design and the test-dress sessions - I can feel the fire!
...but whence CF came, probably due to too much hype / expecting too much, it ain't what it used to feel like 2 years ago *sigh* But I still enjoyed myself - partaking in a few photoshoot sessions (that in the end excluded me out *sigh*), and having fun running around as Zails Abigails, the exiled magician from abroad :)
~~~~~
Having written all this out, I guess 2009 ain't my year.
So I really really really wish 2010 had better be a better year.
'Coz it's the year I'm officially starting my Illustration major - and I'll be learning from the few great sifus like the legendary KS. Please bear with this student of yours, I'll try my best to improve my figure drawings skills and get better with every round of assignments!
Since I've got 2 more years in TOA, I'll definitely relish the time - to fulfill my function again, since it's the only role I can play to the fullest, being me @ the One-Winged Angel @ The Resident Trickster God, is what they used to know me by back then, and until today >DDDD
Aaaaand I can't wait to roll the first dice...
...and yes, my 2010 resolutions?
1. Play more mind games >DDD
2. Survive this dysfunctional family - I don't give 2 hoots to whatever the old man says anymore.
3. Improve my figure drawing skills XD; And pick up a few more new skills (esp. using the tablet!)
4. Finish reading all the books I've bought XD;;; (too many of 'em lying around my room...)
5. Enough splurging on EGA clothes/merchandise (unless said item(s) is REALLY EPIC-AWESOME!) ^w^;;;
6. When I see limited edition figurines/things that money cannot buy in the end, BUY THEM NOW when they are still around!~~ (made the mistake of not buying Vergil, and until today I deeply regretted it >___< Waaaah...)
7. Finish my doujin [Fairytale] for this year's CF! (and hopefully it'll turn out great with my newly acquired skills by then!)
8. Draw MOAR characters XD; Time to flesh them out, and also time to bring back Mysso into the fold!
9. Give my alter ego more freedom <3 (though I can't guarantee what she'll do when she unexpectedly takes control!~)
and lastly,
10. Always stay true/same to my current self, and never forget how far I've come ^-^
and also stay true to all the people I loved - including my beloved LDK <3
That's all for this entry, and until the next update (hopefully with the CF entry, I've been going 'round trying to grab as many shots as I can of myself),
-L