I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feelNo matter how much I got help. I'm done. Done with therapy. Pills. Peoples lack of comprehension or desired to figure it out. But I figured out. That I live my life, and I force myself to stumble and ( Read more... )

Well today was odd enough. I saw people I hadnt seen in ages, Kit, Ten, Lizzy, and my parents. Although they dont count. And it all started with an odd note on my mailbox in the dorm/apartment building.... I had a package from UPS. And among odd turns, I became an pretty pretty princess thanks to Jermiah's horrendous crush on me and stupid presents ( Read more... )

I'm way surprized that I made it through Christmas. It's always so suprizing to see how far I've made it since the christmas of my 16th year with my attempt on suicide. But it went off without a hitch. But it was the most untraditional christmas from the eve to the end. We didnt even have Turkey. The christmas presents were already stacked in a ( Read more... )

Apparently I've been a good girl this year. I had an amazing night with Joe. And I went and met my new roommate who is awesome. AND I get home. There's a package at my door. I havent ordered anything. And I rip it open. Its from fredricks of hollywood. Someone sent my longerie. in my size. Two things were backordered and one of them was this ( Read more... )

So i wake up and shower and go to my kitchen to get some milk. I realize that I only drink chocolate milk when wierd shit happens. Like this morning. I'm making it. I walk over to my door cuz theres something on my mat, something like...a condom. ODD! And its a Trojan Magnum Large Condom. Dont know many guys who'd fill it out. And a note on a ( Read more... )

Okay. So I noticed my last update was when i had my nose pierced. Thats too funny. God its been forever. I had to take it out when i got my new job at ****** waitressing. Thats amusing. So I waitress now. And then over thanksgiving I got my inner labia pierced. seriously painful. and i did pass out and scream. lol. Let's see, I've dumped Justin. ( Read more... )

I've been working a lot and doing odd jobs to make ends meet. I've been single for a while. My tires were slashed saturday, Sarah died tuesday. And Ryan left to go back to florida and i didnt get to say goodbye. That sucks. Ryans the guy I'm "seeing" but not. oh well. I'll see him in a month or so. I guess I'll make do with phone and net again. Oh ( Read more... )

so out of spotaneous-ness I went to the mall yesterday. I said hello to Justin at hottopic and bought a top and some hair ribbon. Then I got the urge to get a piercing. And just GOT a nose piercing. randomly. I'm soo different i know. But i rather like it ( Read more... )

I feel so horrible and among other things I feel like I need to make a change ( Read more... )

Okay. So I'm taking three classes this semester and still manage to be considered full-time Anyways. I'm in Western Civ begining to 1715 ( Read more... )