xeversosweet34x: You know what
turah321: what?
xeversosweet34x: I am always finding something to be depressed about like no matter what--and even though im sick of school and bored of life and having money problems
xeversosweet34x: Im happy
xeversosweet34x: you know why
xeversosweet34x: Cause i have you
turah321: aw yay
turah321: you shouldn't be ( Read more... )

Okay , so it ISN'T my last visit to the doctor. I have to go back next week. But to a different kind of doctor.

Seems  it could be a little more serious than we all thought.

I've been to the doctor 7 times the past 2 1/2 weeks.
Today was hopefully my last visit.
Sigh.

1. I hate you.

2. When will i finally be all better. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired all the damn time, it's making me mean.

3. Why do I always feel like I'm being played?

4. I don't like pretending that I'm happy

5. i like you.

this is for emily vaught...

[Me]: I am deeply sorry.
[guest530]: its kool :) thanks tar
guest530 lost connection.

its from a conversation at work, on our chat line. haha, they called me tar!

going to the doctor, again, today.

will they just figure out what's wrong already?

Wish I was in your arms lying right there beside you. But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight, and I'll gently kiss your lips, touch you with my fingertips. So turn out the light and close your eyes.

I'm already there. Don't make a sound. I'm the beat in your heart. I'm the moonlight shining down. I'm the whisper in the wind, and I'll be ( Read more... )

 "because thats what people do...they leap and hope to God they can fly cause otherwise, we just drop like a rock...wondering the whole way down why in the hell did i jump? but here i am...falling, there's only one person that makes me feel like i can fly....its you"

"just know that i'm with you...and what you feel, i feel it too"

 life is good at the moment. with a few exceptions... but they will soon be resolved :)

It's not always about what you want.
Sometimes it's what you need to do, to get what you want.