Been a while
So after a look at this journal, I only have two brief entries. Even though I use this platform daily, feeling a lil guilty, it seems I've neglected to do much with this journal.
This is my attempt to start writing after many a failures. I just have this annoying voice uttering constantly, "You're writing is too vanilla", that was once said to me by a teacher, mind you I totally agreed with her at the time, for it was true, but I've let it hold me back for too long.
While it was true at the time, I like to believe it isn't so anymore. I was constantly plagued by my inseurities of not being enough, let alone good, that fear stopped any honest attempt to write. Academically I was able to write papers, but my creativity pool was more like a dried up puddle, caked with mudd and decaying leaves.
For as long as I can remember there has always been this fear of writing, really it boils down to communication. I've never really been the talkative, social butterfly type, so I find myself lacking confidence when it comes to trying to convey my ideas, intentions, or emotions. I fear being misunderstood, though it's inevitable, for I won't always have the right words or do the right thing to please or appease. I choose to stay mum about a lot of things while I rage a storm inside my mind. Not the healthiest thing, highly don't recommend it.
For all the years I've been in this fanfic business, I've seen and learned a lot. So much so that from this I've plucked the courage to voice my graitute for the people that put their work out there. Baby steps. The next move would be to actually do some writting of my own. I'm always inspired by things I see, stories I hear, or events that occur, but I have yet to commit any of those ideas to paper. I've written two stories on paper but they're incomplete and unfinished. Still, in the spirit of turning over a new leaf, I'd like to at least try.
My thought process leans a lot to the dark, the morbid, the not so happily ever afters, so nautrally my writing reflects that. That will just have to be a hurdle I must overcome in this process. The thought of bringing a smile to others is nice, I'd like to be able to do what others have done for me many a time. There are days I just like to escape into fluffy- cracky fiction and let the day's events just wash away. There's going to be a lot of deep digging for those results, but I am willing to do the work.
A long the way there have been words of encouragement from authors I admire and fellow readers I always scroll down the comment section to see their thoughts on the story. They are also a huge encouragement in this first step, so a Thank you to all of those who have spared a few kind words.
This is more of a means for accountability rather than a promise, don't like those, so that I may look back at my words and feel compelled to do what I have yearned to do so many times.
This was supposed to be an update and perhaphs a sulking ode about my dearest Jaejoong. Instead this has come out, all thanks to no sleep. I loose focus easily.No regrets though, this was a long time coming.
Also I might essay on Jaejoong soon so be forewarned. I could go on and on for days about Jaejoong. I'll leave it at that before I start to proclaim my undying love for Kim Jaejoong. I've used his name three times already, help. Posting this before I regret.
This is my attempt to start writing after many a failures. I just have this annoying voice uttering constantly, "You're writing is too vanilla", that was once said to me by a teacher, mind you I totally agreed with her at the time, for it was true, but I've let it hold me back for too long.
While it was true at the time, I like to believe it isn't so anymore. I was constantly plagued by my inseurities of not being enough, let alone good, that fear stopped any honest attempt to write. Academically I was able to write papers, but my creativity pool was more like a dried up puddle, caked with mudd and decaying leaves.
For as long as I can remember there has always been this fear of writing, really it boils down to communication. I've never really been the talkative, social butterfly type, so I find myself lacking confidence when it comes to trying to convey my ideas, intentions, or emotions. I fear being misunderstood, though it's inevitable, for I won't always have the right words or do the right thing to please or appease. I choose to stay mum about a lot of things while I rage a storm inside my mind. Not the healthiest thing, highly don't recommend it.
For all the years I've been in this fanfic business, I've seen and learned a lot. So much so that from this I've plucked the courage to voice my graitute for the people that put their work out there. Baby steps. The next move would be to actually do some writting of my own. I'm always inspired by things I see, stories I hear, or events that occur, but I have yet to commit any of those ideas to paper. I've written two stories on paper but they're incomplete and unfinished. Still, in the spirit of turning over a new leaf, I'd like to at least try.
My thought process leans a lot to the dark, the morbid, the not so happily ever afters, so nautrally my writing reflects that. That will just have to be a hurdle I must overcome in this process. The thought of bringing a smile to others is nice, I'd like to be able to do what others have done for me many a time. There are days I just like to escape into fluffy- cracky fiction and let the day's events just wash away. There's going to be a lot of deep digging for those results, but I am willing to do the work.
A long the way there have been words of encouragement from authors I admire and fellow readers I always scroll down the comment section to see their thoughts on the story. They are also a huge encouragement in this first step, so a Thank you to all of those who have spared a few kind words.
This is more of a means for accountability rather than a promise, don't like those, so that I may look back at my words and feel compelled to do what I have yearned to do so many times.
This was supposed to be an update and perhaphs a sulking ode about my dearest Jaejoong. Instead this has come out, all thanks to no sleep. I loose focus easily.No regrets though, this was a long time coming.
Also I might essay on Jaejoong soon so be forewarned. I could go on and on for days about Jaejoong. I'll leave it at that before I start to proclaim my undying love for Kim Jaejoong. I've used his name three times already, help. Posting this before I regret.