If there is anything the past three years have taught me, it is that people rarely change, even if they say they will, and every little thing that you put aside and look past for someone builds and builds until you're drowning in hurt and frustration. I don't know your particular situation, so I hope I'm not speaking out of turn in this. But it is something I learned the very long and very hard way. That nagging voice in the back of your mind, as much as you might like it to be wrong, is usually right.
In any case, I do hope things work out for you, and it is great to hear from you again--it's been a long while between updates. Thanks also for the URL to your other blog--I do enjoy reading your poetry.
yeah I just found out about you and Daniel last week. I think I kind of know what happened but don't really. i probably had some of the same problems too. but this with andrew is nothing like what Daniel ever did. at leas Andrew has work. and im working on that still. I am working for Avon though. but no. he did say he could change his mind. and he could. and its not like what im sad now is going to happen any time soon. but I told him I want kids. Latter of cores not now. and he has talked bout having kids. but now he says he doesn't. and yet he says he could still change his mind. what can I say. the guys freaked. I can't be mad at that. but it hurts now to see little ones running around now. I look away, and he puts his arms around me holding me closes. telling me sorry and some times hes just silent. i think he wold be wonderful having his oun kid. watching him with his family's young ones. he is so loving. I think you know what that looks like. its something you cant explain.
With Daniel and I, it wasn't just about him not having a job. The real problems were more with disagreements when it came to priorities, directions and goals in life, how we were going to live, that kind of thing. It was so easy at first to think "oh, I can just give that up for him, I don't really need to do that", but after a while, all the things I wished I could do or wished I could be... I was putting most of them aside, and I didn't know who I really was any more.
And I know what you mean about how someone like that is with kids... I do know what it looks like. I hope things work out for you.
I hate to say it but that was my view on Daniel. he is so sweet though. but to me he does need help. I look at him and thinks somethings snapped. and its not for the good. it hurts me to see him the way that he is. lizzy has told me some things. I take it he has his car? you dont have to answer if you dont want to.
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I don't know your particular situation, so I hope I'm not speaking out of turn in this. But it is something I learned the very long and very hard way. That nagging voice in the back of your mind, as much as you might like it to be wrong, is usually right.
In any case, I do hope things work out for you, and it is great to hear from you again--it's been a long while between updates. Thanks also for the URL to your other blog--I do enjoy reading your poetry.
Be well.
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but this with andrew is nothing like what Daniel ever did. at leas Andrew has work. and im working on that still. I am working for Avon though.
but no. he did say he could change his mind. and he could. and its not like what im sad now is going to happen any time soon. but I told him I want kids. Latter of cores not now. and he has talked bout having kids. but now he says he doesn't. and yet he says he could still change his mind. what can I say. the guys freaked. I can't be mad at that. but it hurts now to see little ones running around now. I look away, and he puts his arms around me holding me closes. telling me sorry and some times hes just silent. i think he wold be wonderful having his oun kid. watching him with his family's young ones. he is so loving. I think you know what that looks like. its something you cant explain.
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And I know what you mean about how someone like that is with kids... I do know what it looks like. I hope things work out for you.
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