unzip my body, take my heart out, cuz I need a beat to give this to

[tarzannie]

I find it interesting, albeit in a cynical way, that all of the lessons I resented hearing as a child I now find myself spouting like an eighty year old grandmother. And the biggest lesson I've come across so far is that the older you get, the faster time seems to fly

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[lindylee]

Hey. I hope you don't mind me commenting. But I know how you feel. I haven't slipped into an unsatisfying life yet...but it looks very good that I will as soon as I finish my thesis. I am terrified of that...but what choice do I have? I'm stuck in Tennessee until my husband finishes his degree. I feel that I will lose any momentum I have built by getting my degree. You are right, I think, when you say it is up to you to change it. You could start small...start living the life you want now. I always like how sophisticated that woman's life is in Sex and The City, so sometimes I pretend I live a sophisticated life too and drink tea. I hope that makes sense. Or pick a goal and a deadline, and then slowly start working towards it...that won't seem too hard then maybe? I need to tell myself all this too.

[lindylee]

Ps. You spent time over seas...that's not an easy thing to do. If you did that, I bet you could do anything!

[tarzannie]

Hey Lindy!
Thanks for commenting, it's very sweet of you. I've kind of started using my livejournal as a way to vent, so it probably sounds a lot more emotional than I intend it to be. But ya know, they do say writing is great therapy! I think it's great you are still experiencing the learning process--sometimes I think I want to go back to school, but then I remember the joys of not having homework. I agree that becoming the person you want to be needs to start small, and I'll get there eventually. We both will!