now i remember wow i stopped taking pills. so i guess that means, umm, alcohol...even though not in an exorbant amount, was a bad idea w/ all the fuckin narcotics i was on. but i didn't hurt...as much. til this morning. i busted ass sooooo hard yesterday. i would just like to take this moment to tell you....RED BULL DOES NOT GIVE YOU WINGS....AND ( Read more... )

cmu last night fuckin sucked so bad. i should've just stayed home. or at lauren's. we drove home at like 4 am. and i made it to like almost 75 before i made lauren drive cos my eyes were shakin sooo bad. and then. i was all alone. i didn't cuddle w/ lauren last night. i was soo cold all by myself. i made a drunk man cry, and then i took him to the ( Read more... )

i hate drama. and i hate boys. i try to be a good person, and i try to help people out, but i've decided to stop helping others, b/c it really doesn't pay off, so why bother? i dunno. i guess i should just stick to what's familiar. opening your mind to new ideas and opportunities is USUALLY a good idea, but when the door leads back, or down, it's ( Read more... )

well, my mom certainly surprised me, but i dont know how i feel. i'm soo stressed out. i'm really glad that i've got such supportive friends. times like this, i need them. and i can only hope that you'll understand, katie. i miss alisa gorski!!! i love you ma! and yeah, so , anthony asked for a key kinda, and i dont know what to say, i dont think i ( Read more... )

beautiful child. i wish that you were mine. and i wish i could forgive you for breaking my heart. i put so much into you...
why?

FIN

beautiful child ( Read more... )

well, my christmas was pretty good. my love slave got me a really nice dior set. :) i dropped dollars on him at express, and i made him a blanket...hehe. i'm a lot better this year than last year...i thank anthony for that. i can't stand winter..it's kuh kuh. my grandpa died in his sleep a few weeks ago. sad day. but i got to see all my family up ( Read more... )

well, it's that time of year again. welcome back depression. with the trees bare and the sky gray, i really have nothing and noone to wake for in the morning. this winter will be harsh in the a. i'm talking to a few guys here and there, but nothing too substantial. TBA. i love you all. TAKEIT ( Read more... )

the first person to call me to wish that to me was constantin. how fuckin cute?!? matt and i are gonna go to the olive garden this evening. but..he NEEDS to make reservations POST HASTE! umm, i got a newer old car. 93 sunbird. what should i be for halloween? any suggestions. let me know. something from noir leather? vampire? what would i wear? hmm ( Read more... )