its one of those days. i feel like i am all alone. i shouldn't be sad i have no reason to be. i start work on wednesday. i played frisbee golf today that was interesting except my brother threw a frizbee into a swamp and we had to go trudging through the tall swamp grass stuff to find the missing frizbee.... other than that i have done absolutly ( Read more... )

i updated my photo album, and slightly organized them. i really missed being in indiana, i am starting to get used to the weather again, because i really like being outside here, i like the people and the atmosphere at purdue. i am quite happy to be back, being in new york and being all alone was really draining the life out of me. today i have ( Read more... )

I am home from chicago. i hate waking up, looking around, and realizing that i am alone. I talked to ani for quite a while last night. i have absolutly nothing to talk about, i just long to hear her voice. for once in my life, i feel like somone knows me, i feel understood. i should find another job soon but i have to wait untill i will be able to ( Read more... )

laid off... again

last night i got on my aol account and noticed somone on my buddy list, i had talked to her once befor, she is from west lafayett, apparently got my screen name through some friends. i talked to her for about two hours, thats unusual there are only a handfull of people i can talk to for that long. she is quite interesting, and quite nice. i was ( Read more... )

Up ahead in the distance, I saw a shimmering light, my head grew heavy and my sight grew dim, I had to stop for the night ( Read more... )

i went to visit lindsay for her sweet 16 last weekend. i miss her already. every time i go see her i get to remember how much i care about her. she is like the kid sister i never had. she understand me too, and she knows me. she knows who i really am and she cares about me anyway. she is so increadibly amazing. i almost cried when i left, i didn't ( Read more... )

its funny, as we get older we are supposed to learn to follow the rules. its like a painting, the "best" paintings or drawings follow the exact rules of reality, in order to correctly portray the subject. however on the other hand, that allows no room for expression. i think i would prefer to be able to express myself then to follow the rules of ( Read more... )

when all your nightmares gather as one ( Read more... )

the weather was magnificent outside tonight. when i got home it was quite calm outside. very relaxing. i stood outside for a few moments looking up at the sky, wondering why i am even here, with an entire world out there and so many people looking up at the same stars, it makes my life seem rather insignificant. i have my problems, mostly created ( Read more... )