Two sides of a same story [1/2]
Title: Yamada's side.
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Angst/Fluff
Rating: PG
Summary: What happen after a breakup with the person that you love??? Every breakup have two sides of a story, and both persons fell hurt.
I'm dedicating this fic to my twin's bestfriend bakaahoumahy that it's new add LJ. Thanks for liking my fics so far. ^^
BTW one of my friend help me to write this fic; the letter in the fic was writed by her.
“Again! Again you do the same thing.” Screamed Chinen in anger.
“O come on, it’s not such a big deal. I wasn’t so late” Yamada answered in a carefree manner.
“it’s not about how late you were! It’s about how you keep being late. How can your friends and be more important that our relationship? Since when it’s so important as to break a promise?” Chinen asked, tears staring to form on his eyes.
“Ok, fine. I’m sorry, ok?”
“What?! Don’t apologize when is obvious that you don’t mean it.” Chinen yelled, the tears running down his face. “You don’t even accept you did something wrong. Do you even remember what day it is?”
Yamada though for a moment before realizing what he has forgotten.
“I’m sorry…” Yamada tried to apologize but Chinen interrupted him.
“How could you forget about our second year anniversary? And I was here all exited waiting for you to give you a surprise”
“ I…” Yamada didn’t new what to say.
“Don’t say anything. You don’t really mean it and I hate to hears empty words” Chinen tried to calm himself because continuing in a lower voice. “Aren’t you afraid of me getting tired of this and just leaving? What if I decide that this is not worth it? I’m warning you Yamada. Either you star to make this work or I’ll just leave.
The truth is I never thought he was really going to leave. We have been together since we finished high school; I thought it was all bragging and manipulation, but he actually leave. Maybe I thought he couldn’t live without me. But then, why am I all alone when I wake up?”
Some people say that we don’t learn from others people though; and I just proved on myself that ‘No one knows what he has until he loses it’.
I thought I was fine, that I was doing nothing wrong; but it wasn’t until he leaves me that I realize how much I was hurting him with all my carelessness and arrogance.
And I was being a fool for not taking good care of him. Now I know that I didn’t deserved his love, I didn’t deserved his touch, I didn’t deserved his worries… I just didn’t deserve him.
At night I just don’t want to fall sleep because every night I dream of him. I dream of his smooth skin, his bright smile, his sweet eyes, and his soft lips. And I feel like dying every morning when I found he's not there besides me anymore.
And every time I see him at work, at dance practice or on a show I just want to hug him and beg for his forgiveness. I don’t really care what people can say, but I know he wouldn’t want that; so I keep quiet when the only thing I want to do is scream to the whole world that I can’t leave without him.
And the only thing I want to hear it’s his voice telling me that he still loves me, that he is as hurt as I am. Cause even if I’m surrounded by thousands of people it won’t matter if he is not there for me.
The fame, the money, the recognition I don’t want any of them if I can’t have him.
I have left to never return. Not because my love for you has gone, or because I can’t find it.
I still love you with all that is me; with all senses, my might and heart.
But because I feel like my love to you it’s not the same as your love to me.
My heart will regret leaving, but my mind will keep me going.
I will forever love you and need you, but I will no longer be with you.
I will probably cry every day at first, just to settle down;
But I won’t come back because I know there could be no point.
I will forever love you. Goodbye.
Tears run down my face as I’m again reading the letter he left the day he moved out of the apartment. I know I should have talked to him at that moment, but maybe at that time my mind and heart has not realized how much I needed and loved him.
In the letter he said you will always love me, and that give me a little hope. But it also say he won’t come back so I wonder, would I ever hold him again?
I was again being such a fool for not trying to talk to him, a coward; so I guess I still don’t deserve him.
And I was losing my hopes of hearing him said that he loves me, since every time I saw him he just ignored me; he looked so smile and happy that sometimes I asked myself if it was true that he was better without me. But when I look at him carefully I can see that he is not ok.
I know that even though he says that he is fine I can see that he hide his pain behind his smile.
So why do we keep fighting when I know the love we feel is real and that even if he lied He still love me as much as I love him.
I’ll give everything that I have just to convince him that this time it’s true; that I mean what I say and that I have change. I can promise him that I have learned from my mistake.
I was and real idiot but I can't live without him.
So, I’ll finally say it.
“Chii, I can’t sleep without you invading my dreams and I feel like going crazy every morning cause you are no there with me. And every time I saw you I just feel like screaming how much I love you and I how can’t live without you. Because it doesn’t matter how many people are around me or what I can have, everything its worthless if you are not by my side. That it’s why I’m now… begging to hear you say that you love me back.”
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This fic is impired in a JB song "can't have you". I know the end is lame but here its 6:30am and I havent sleep yet. I'm also too tired to cheeck this, so sorry for my bad english.
I'll try to post the next part today (my time). Love the Comments :D
I hope you guys like it ^^
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Angst/Fluff
Rating: PG
Summary: What happen after a breakup with the person that you love??? Every breakup have two sides of a story, and both persons fell hurt.
I'm dedicating this fic to my twin's bestfriend bakaahoumahy that it's new add LJ. Thanks for liking my fics so far. ^^
BTW one of my friend help me to write this fic; the letter in the fic was writed by her.
“Again! Again you do the same thing.” Screamed Chinen in anger.
“O come on, it’s not such a big deal. I wasn’t so late” Yamada answered in a carefree manner.
“it’s not about how late you were! It’s about how you keep being late. How can your friends and be more important that our relationship? Since when it’s so important as to break a promise?” Chinen asked, tears staring to form on his eyes.
“Ok, fine. I’m sorry, ok?”
“What?! Don’t apologize when is obvious that you don’t mean it.” Chinen yelled, the tears running down his face. “You don’t even accept you did something wrong. Do you even remember what day it is?”
Yamada though for a moment before realizing what he has forgotten.
“I’m sorry…” Yamada tried to apologize but Chinen interrupted him.
“How could you forget about our second year anniversary? And I was here all exited waiting for you to give you a surprise”
“ I…” Yamada didn’t new what to say.
“Don’t say anything. You don’t really mean it and I hate to hears empty words” Chinen tried to calm himself because continuing in a lower voice. “Aren’t you afraid of me getting tired of this and just leaving? What if I decide that this is not worth it? I’m warning you Yamada. Either you star to make this work or I’ll just leave.
The truth is I never thought he was really going to leave. We have been together since we finished high school; I thought it was all bragging and manipulation, but he actually leave. Maybe I thought he couldn’t live without me. But then, why am I all alone when I wake up?”
Some people say that we don’t learn from others people though; and I just proved on myself that ‘No one knows what he has until he loses it’.
I thought I was fine, that I was doing nothing wrong; but it wasn’t until he leaves me that I realize how much I was hurting him with all my carelessness and arrogance.
And I was being a fool for not taking good care of him. Now I know that I didn’t deserved his love, I didn’t deserved his touch, I didn’t deserved his worries… I just didn’t deserve him.
At night I just don’t want to fall sleep because every night I dream of him. I dream of his smooth skin, his bright smile, his sweet eyes, and his soft lips. And I feel like dying every morning when I found he's not there besides me anymore.
And every time I see him at work, at dance practice or on a show I just want to hug him and beg for his forgiveness. I don’t really care what people can say, but I know he wouldn’t want that; so I keep quiet when the only thing I want to do is scream to the whole world that I can’t leave without him.
And the only thing I want to hear it’s his voice telling me that he still loves me, that he is as hurt as I am. Cause even if I’m surrounded by thousands of people it won’t matter if he is not there for me.
The fame, the money, the recognition I don’t want any of them if I can’t have him.
I have left to never return. Not because my love for you has gone, or because I can’t find it.
I still love you with all that is me; with all senses, my might and heart.
But because I feel like my love to you it’s not the same as your love to me.
My heart will regret leaving, but my mind will keep me going.
I will forever love you and need you, but I will no longer be with you.
I will probably cry every day at first, just to settle down;
But I won’t come back because I know there could be no point.
I will forever love you. Goodbye.
Tears run down my face as I’m again reading the letter he left the day he moved out of the apartment. I know I should have talked to him at that moment, but maybe at that time my mind and heart has not realized how much I needed and loved him.
In the letter he said you will always love me, and that give me a little hope. But it also say he won’t come back so I wonder, would I ever hold him again?
I was again being such a fool for not trying to talk to him, a coward; so I guess I still don’t deserve him.
And I was losing my hopes of hearing him said that he loves me, since every time I saw him he just ignored me; he looked so smile and happy that sometimes I asked myself if it was true that he was better without me. But when I look at him carefully I can see that he is not ok.
I know that even though he says that he is fine I can see that he hide his pain behind his smile.
So why do we keep fighting when I know the love we feel is real and that even if he lied He still love me as much as I love him.
I’ll give everything that I have just to convince him that this time it’s true; that I mean what I say and that I have change. I can promise him that I have learned from my mistake.
I was and real idiot but I can't live without him.
So, I’ll finally say it.
“Chii, I can’t sleep without you invading my dreams and I feel like going crazy every morning cause you are no there with me. And every time I saw you I just feel like screaming how much I love you and I how can’t live without you. Because it doesn’t matter how many people are around me or what I can have, everything its worthless if you are not by my side. That it’s why I’m now… begging to hear you say that you love me back.”
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This fic is impired in a JB song "can't have you". I know the end is lame but here its 6:30am and I havent sleep yet. I'm also too tired to cheeck this, so sorry for my bad english.
I'll try to post the next part today (my time). Love the Comments :D
I hope you guys like it ^^