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I’m in a really bad mood. I can’t handle much of anything right now.
Soccer is stressing me like whoa*! I really hate all of the “no senior leadership” comments that have been thrown my way lately. Let’s just say that I’m a horrible leader, okay…. There is still our whole team!!! It has a huge group of awesome seniors that are totally dedicated to working hard and wanting to do great things this year! How can he say that we have the best group of seniors ever and turn around and say there is no leadership???? Sooo whattt freshmen aren’t listening…we already yell at them a ton and I’m not down for being a total bitch! And sure there is more that we all could do! But same with Elkei! I try sooooo hard to show that I’m stepping up. I work my assssssss to the ground at running and I volunteered to help people in the mornings! Don’t get me wrong I do love working hard and helping people- But there comes a point where you get so completely frustrated when the things being said are always negative and never positive!
I really don’t know what to do. I just put a smile of my face, act all happy when I have all of these things eating me up inside! Every time I come home from anything to do with soccer I get more and more upset with myself. I really feel stuck in a place where there is not right solution- Partly because I don’t know what the problem is! It just seems from what Elkei tells me I’m basically failing everyone. SO I’m sorry!