I don't know what to feel anymore.. I don't even know what to think anymore.. Why is everything testing me? Why do I feel farther than ever before from tha ones I should be drawing close at time like this? Why am I making sacrifices for people who don't even appreciate it? Why does irresolution taunt me so? Why do I keep asking why? And why ( Read more... )

i hate how i go thru these periods of feeling secure in ma relationship, and then right back to hating it. right now, i'm hating on it because i was just on tyson's page and he put up a whole bunch of pics of him and his taylor. they're such a cute couple.. and they're lucky too because they ACTUALLY live in tha same state. i know i got myself into ( Read more... )

Well I may be a whole world of different emotions right now, but at least I'm trying to get my shit together. Only four more days til I can apply for school. I have an interview on Wednesday and I'm looking for more jobs tomorrow FOR SURE! I've been doin ma chores for the most part too.. I'm gettin ma shit together and I sure hope my parents are

Why do I do this to myself ( Read more... )

All this love shit goin' on with me and tha homies lately has me feeling inspired. Like it makes me feel all warm inside and smiley knowing there's all this lovin' goin' on. All tha homies deserve to be with their love and to be happy, so this makes me feel amazing. Ahhhh, if only tha most profound things weren't inexpressible.. then I could tell ( Read more... )

He did it. He actually said those three lil words that change everything. Words dont even begin to describe how I feel about that boy.. Oh man, what have I got myself into. See, I love him too and that's kinda what scares me ( Read more... )

why is that? why cant i form tha words necessary to properly explain this feeling? i suppose because the whole thing is complete nonsense.. from tha funny feeling in yer stomach to yer racing heart. it's worse than any drug you've ever taken. the moment you find it, it's got you hooked and you crave it.. it's tha highest high you can get, but ( Read more... )

is it wrong for me to be mad about ma boyfriend commenting a bunch of this girl's pictures on myspace and telling her how fuckin hot she is and blah blah blah.. like should i not be mad about that? and those comments he left her like hey cutie i miss hanging out with you n blah blah blah... especially since they were from after we got together.. im ( Read more... )

umm two more things ( Read more... )

Quit asking me how I am. I'm tired of lying and saying that I'm doin' fine, just fine because I'm not doin' that well right now. I'm not doin' THAT bad either, but there's so much goin' on in ma world right now and it's starting to get to me. Sorry if I've been acting weird or bitchy lately, but right now, I'm questioning everything, moving on, ( Read more... )